I'm growing so tired of this rollercoaster, someone help me get off
I'm growing so tired of this rollercoaster, someone help me get off
I'm growing so tired of this rollercoaster ride with my hN, If only I had known I was going to be laid off from my full time job, if only I had known how difficult it would be to rid myself of this toxic monster, if only I had known about NPD, or even had a clue as to it, if only.........I would not be stuck on this fn rollercoaster, Im so so so tired, mentally, physically, and emotionally. Im so tired of knowing the truth and accepting what is, but still feeling such utter and overwhelming pain. Why can't I just move on, as if he never existed, why can't I be as coldhearted and cruel as he. Why can't I walk out the door and find someone else. It has been so easy for him to find ow for the last twenty four years, yet, I can't find a soul to even have companionship, yes, I know, I dont go out, i don't have a job where I could meet someone, but still, its so unfair. I want a life again, I want to live happily with myself and my daughter and not feel the pain of him discarding my, disrespecting me, forcing me to throw him out. I hate it, Ive always hated rollercoasters, but moreso now........I wish someone could come here, take my hand and get me off this damn rollercoaster, but unfortunately, only I can do that, and for some reason, I can't. I don't and have very few options right now.........He promised (he lied) and said he would be on his own before the holidays, guess what, no sign of that, Thanksgiving is next month.......If only he would do one thing hes ever said he'd do, that would be what I would wish, he could be on his own, and when his daughter needs him, at anytime day or night, he could be there for her, he would actually be able to answer the phone to her and let her know hes there, when her problems are so overwheming for me, she could call him and stay the night with him.......oh, how selfish of me to want someone to parent their own child, I must be a narc......lol...........I want off.............Jaycee
The only person that can get
almostlydia
oh im so tired again today
Jaycee
Jaycee
Believe in yourself!
Terri
jaycee
Jaycee
You will get off..
you will get off
Jaycee
You know it occurs to me......
you know it occurs to me.........
Jaycee
Jaycee....
Yeah!
You're holding on to him
Im sorry i have to laugh
LML
Jaycee
Jaycee,
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Jaycee
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Jaycee
jaycee love
thank you for all the great replies
Jaycee
"She won." No, Jaycee. She
Narc fatigue , its setting
You do have the power to get
A viscious circle
Believe in yourself!
Terri
Me too!
Beautiful, Terri :) Jaycee,
who was I before all this?
Jaycee
Oh, she's still in there
And
Jaycee
Believe in yourself!
Terri
jaycee
Jaycee