DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGH! I AM SO STUPID!!!
I peeked at his FACEBOOK BUSINESS PAGE!!! SO STUPID!
I felt weak this morning and PEAKED!!!
For those who are contemplating "peeking", DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT IS SO NOT WORTH IT!!! DAMN IT!!!
I wish to GOD I didn't. I saw that girl posting "likes" to his stupid pictures. Pictures of him which have nothing to do with his business. He is so conceited. He also posted pics of himself with his 13 year old daughter to pull on women's heartstrings...ASSHOLE.
I also saw EX GIRLFRIENDS of his posting, too!!!
I HATE HIM! And I am so angry and hurt!!!
For those of you who don't know the story of the last "assault" my ex narc did to me...Read below.
If you have...Disregard AND SEND ME SOME SUPPORT! I am at work and I own my own business- retail - AND I AM A WRECK!!!
HELP!!! :(
HERE IS THE LATEST STORY:
WHY??? Why the hell is this freak in my mind constantly?
I took him back after the 2nd D&D.
He was hoovering, big time. I was prepared to ignore him, even after sending me 6 dozen roses (yeah, he's smooth), deposited a ton of money in my bank account (very weird)but then he emailed me...
Why are they always one step ahead of us with their words?
Cause they are EVIL!!!
Said he was ready for marriage now (something I have been wanting to hear for 4 years from him!). He said everything in the past months were his fault and took full responsiblity. - one of the doozies was hooking up with someone 20 years his junior (15 yrs younger than me). He's 48. She is 28. Gross.
He was STILL seeing her when he sent me that email! But said he'd end it and that he could never be serious with her, etc...
I said "Fine, call her now, put her on speaker phone and I want to HEAR you ending it!"
He did. Told her he could never be serious with her and reminded her that he encouraged her to date other guys. He told her he was still in love with me and wanted to marry me and that he could never see her again".
I felt icky doing that...Not proud of that.
Anyway, he told me we would buy a ring cause he wanted to prove to me how commited he was. He made an appt with jeweler. Jeweler called me and asked what kind of ring I liked...I was opening my heart to him at this point. I was getting excited.
OK...Then he flew me down to see him (long distance relationship). When I was down there, at dinner, he told me we could look at rings, but HE CHANGED HIS MIND AND DIDN'T WANT TO BUY IT NOW.
REALLY???? WTF????
I understandably went ballistic and nipped it in the bud right there and ended it.
But next day I panicked. I called him and he told me "Its over and I want to "TRY" and move forward with this 28 year old"
I felt like I was gutted right then and there.
He told me he burned all my pictures cause he wanted to remove the stamp hold I had on him. LIAR.
I BEGGED and PLEADED and tried every trick in the book.
Nope. He wasn't budging. He was probably getting off on hearing me belittling myself.
So I sit there. In shock.
What just happened to me??????
He's done this so many times to me, but in different ways.
It gets WORSE with every reunion/discard.
Obviously this young girl is perfect for him cause she took him back after what he told her!!!...PERFECT source at his time of need!!!
This happened almost 3 weeks ago. I am still in shock and I just need support right now. I can't help bit picturing them together in my mind. I am SO ENVIOUS of her because he is wining and dining and wooing her and loving her right now. She has a younger bod and younger skin and yes it's not helping my self-esteem.
I know what will happen in a month or two...He will burn her...But what if he doesn't? I KNOW I have told others here that they'll treat others the same way...But it scares ME today!!!
And it still hurts. :( And I am scared to death of him contacting me again. And I am scared to death of him NOT contacting me!
He is obviously derranged. And I feel like I am right now!!!
I blocked him from every phone and email sent to spam (of course I check my spam...UGH!!! >:-(
Please give me some words of encouragement.
HELP... :( Thanks for listening.
Same as you, what should i do? he moved on well
Ah the old facebook
staying strong78
Glad u had a laugh:) If a new
Hi. Am 29 now but was dating
EWA! :-)
He WILL most definitely dump
o.m.g. this post just scared
Dazed! GOOD!!!!
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LOL...you made me laugh....I
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Michele115 (((HUGS)))
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Thank you very much...
Completely agree with finallygotit!
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Similar upbringings
Same here, but....
You are to hard on yourself
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