I'm not really sorry for having sunk to that level...though I totally get what you're saying and don't disagree on a moral level; I do remind myself that I was dealing with a completely amoral person...our feelings of remorse stem from the errant brain fart we have that classifies these parasites as the brethren of decent human beings...of which, they most certainly are not.
During our split, I made it very clear to him that absolutely nothing from that moment forward would be about him...it was all about me and he was going to hear every damn thing I had to say to him.
Looking back, I don't regret any of what I said. I regret I didn't make a better choice 7 years earlier. But I know if I didn't say this stuff, it would literally eat a hole in me after I left. Hope this makes sense. :/
No, it makes total sense. It would be one thing if you'd hurt a genuinely feeling human being, and afterwards felt truly remorseful, but nothing you can say or do to these people means anything, anyway. Like I said, my narc long ago determined that I was an "evil" person and it didn't matter if I said "I love you," or "I hate you." He would have treated both sentiments equally with suspicion and contempt.
So if it made you feel better, then I'm glad you had that release and good for you!
xoxo
You know what made me feel even better than that? The $3,000 I made him fork over so I could move out. Told him that since he never bothered to propose to me, he could at least pay the amount he would for an uncontested divorce. He couldn't write the check fast enough! I of course, photocopied it and framed it (after I ripped the picture of him to shreds that I took out of that same frame).
That's even better! A lot of people can't get one red cent out of their narcs, even when they've blatantly stolen from them. Congrats on that -- that's HUGE!!!
hahaha! I think that should have been "Good Witch of the East"...
I'm nobody's fool...and I felt like I was really played for one in that relationship...I do have way with words (sarcasm is my friend)...when need be...I can't think of a time in my life when I have ever been more grateful for that trait than I was during those few weeks...there were plenty more gems, but those two were the ones that really stand out...I'll share my comments and stated opinions about his mother soon! :D
I'm not really sorry for
No, it makes total sense. It
You know what made me feel
That's even better! A lot of
I seriously hope I took 7
Bravo!
hahaha! I think that should