Ends up I have to send my baby down there after all. It is in the order that if GF or his mom is there, D can go. Well, the gf and him are back together-ARE YOU fIN KIDDING ME.
It was predictable though. I have to send her down there to the dysfunction of him and her back together and not together. How confusing for children!!!!!
Well I did not handle this well at all. I am considering going on medication and I am so angry at myself for falling into this all over again. Only to be rejected by him again in the end. " I thought I didnt love her and it was the right thing to get back with you and my family". then (after I told him he was a slime and after we spent some time, guess he realizes he no longer loves me), -this is all previous conversation, I am still NC.
Even though he is a piece of shit, it still hurts. I am trying to get to the place where I realize it doesnt really matter and I am soooo better off with out him. All of this was the universes way of bopping me over the head and waking me up.
Funny how I can think of GF as PATHETIc to even consider getting back with him, well that gives me some self reflection because that is what I potentially was doing, considering getting back with a NARC, lying.
Anyone else have the experience of them with holding all of the info, or twisting the truth, so it appears it isnt a real lie? He resorts to saying "things change and perspectives change, so sometimes facts change". crazy making behavior