Really Really need support today

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#1 Feb 26 - 9AM
NicoleLoyola
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Really Really need support today

For some reason this morning some new puzzle pieces came together about my ex-N. I am now convinced that he had slept with/is currently sleeping with one of my friends behind my back. A friend that at the beginning of our relationship was always part of my group of friends and would hang out many nights with us. She's a player too and always sleeping around with random guys so I am thinking he was "secretly" into her because she was a challenge to him.

I was thinking back to some things that happened during the relationship:

How he was extra flirty with her in front of me
How he called her a few times in front of me to see what she was doing
How he made it a point to say that she was gross for sleeping with so many people but he always seemed concerned with what she was doing
How when I found out he had been smoking pot behind my back for months he said "how does this make you so angry...It's not as if I've been cheating on you or something"

I am absolutely devastated right now and I have been thinking about it non-stop for the last 3 hours. I feel like I'm going to vomit.
I feel absolutely worthless, betrayed, lied to, punched in the gut, and I don't know how I am going to get through the days, weeks, etc.
The amount of trust that I gave this man, I believed his promises that he would never cheat on a woman yet he was doing it and RUBBING MY NOSE IN IT.

Please help me to get through this pain of betrayal.

Mar 13 - 9PM
omgalso
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Don't beat youself up!

Mar 4 - 1PM
NicoleLoyola
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It's hurting so so bad today.

Mar 4 - 2PM (Reply to #10)
Lookforward
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Hi NicoleLoyola, Nice name!

Mar 4 - 2PM (Reply to #11)
ItsFinallytime
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"I bet you nothing happened

Mar 4 - 3PM (Reply to #12)
Lookforward
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Hi IFT, im not saying dont

Mar 4 - 1PM (Reply to #8)
Hunter
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Are you in therapy ??

Mar 13 - 9PM (Reply to #9)
ladylilly
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Friends like that are priceless.

Feb 27 - 8AM
NicoleLoyola
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To all who responded

Mar 13 - 6PM (Reply to #6)
AlwaysSummer
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I recognize that MO

Feb 26 - 4PM
allstar
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Really really need support today

Feb 26 - 11AM
Thetruthwillset...
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Moments like this will keep happening...

Feb 26 - 11AM
stayingstrong11
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It's ok the grieve

Feb 26 - 1PM (Reply to #2)
betterforit
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NicoleLoyola