Really Really need support today
Really Really need support today
For some reason this morning some new puzzle pieces came together about my ex-N. I am now convinced that he had slept with/is currently sleeping with one of my friends behind my back. A friend that at the beginning of our relationship was always part of my group of friends and would hang out many nights with us. She's a player too and always sleeping around with random guys so I am thinking he was "secretly" into her because she was a challenge to him.
I was thinking back to some things that happened during the relationship:
How he was extra flirty with her in front of me
How he called her a few times in front of me to see what she was doing
How he made it a point to say that she was gross for sleeping with so many people but he always seemed concerned with what she was doing
How when I found out he had been smoking pot behind my back for months he said "how does this make you so angry...It's not as if I've been cheating on you or something"
I am absolutely devastated right now and I have been thinking about it non-stop for the last 3 hours. I feel like I'm going to vomit.
I feel absolutely worthless, betrayed, lied to, punched in the gut, and I don't know how I am going to get through the days, weeks, etc.
The amount of trust that I gave this man, I believed his promises that he would never cheat on a woman yet he was doing it and RUBBING MY NOSE IN IT.
Please help me to get through this pain of betrayal.
Don't beat youself up!
It's hurting so so bad today.
Hi NicoleLoyola, Nice name!
"I bet you nothing happened
Hi IFT, im not saying dont
Are you in therapy ??
Friends like that are priceless.
To all who responded
I recognize that MO
Really really need support today
Moments like this will keep happening...
It's ok the grieve
NicoleLoyola