No Contact is so difficult

It's been just one week since I found this forum and read about the importance of No Contact. I decided to start it on June 1. I ended up calling NH about divorce papers I received that day. It was a bad conversation because I kept it on the divorce only and because he was a jerk on the phone. I have not had any phone/text/email contact with him since. I drive past where he works to get to my work everyday. I know where the OW lives too. I couldn't resist driving past her house yesterday just to see what vehicles were there. Should I stay away from both of those places too, or is it okay? I feel like I kind of need to know what he is up to because when he is with her he leaves me alone.

I am a mess today. I want to hear his voice. I want what he promised we would have together, what I saw little glimpses of from time to time. I want the attention and fun that I imagine he is giving the OW these days. I know I'm having a weak moment, but this NC is really hard to do sometimes.

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