I have a really bad problem..

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#1 Dec 13 - 5PM
kelliejean123
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I have a really bad problem..

I am struggling so badly with NC. I am doing everything im supposed to be doing. I made the pros and cons list, I even wrote a letter to him that Im never going to send, I wrote the reasons why I need to move on, I even created a list of the narc talk and all the things hes said to me. I kept reading them over and over again I even shared my list with a friend for extra support, but I still cannot stop the compulsions. I have really bad OCD and I am in cognitive behavioral therapy for about a year now because I myself, have panic disorder. Now this all made it worse. I have been doing what the site is telling me to do, Ive read blogs and stories about other people and I feel slight relief. but when im with my friends or I try to distract myself I cant help but think about him. I now feel im developing PTSD from my narc and Its scaring me. I dont know what to do and I am trying to contain the urges of NC but I cant do anything about it i really am trying my hardest. this is one of the hardest things ive been through and i feel as if its only getting harder. I really am afraid and I cant help but panic that I wont get through it. I miss him so badly and he treated me so horribly and had NPD. but I still cant wrap my head around whats going on and its been TWO WEEKS.

Dec 14 - 9AM
Callie
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No contact

Dec 14 - 9AM (Reply to #18)
kelliejean123
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callie, your the best.

Dec 16 - 9AM (Reply to #20)
spinning
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hey, kj, I have a simple

spinning

Dec 14 - 1PM (Reply to #19)
Callie
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Hugs

Dec 14 - 9AM (Reply to #17)
Hunter
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Callie

Dec 13 - 10PM
Willow
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kelliejean, it's really hard

Dec 13 - 10PM (Reply to #14)
kelliejean123
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Yeah me saying I don't know

Dec 13 - 11PM (Reply to #15)
Willow
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You are taking this

Dec 13 - 10PM
kelliejean123
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thank you for the replies

Dec 14 - 10AM (Reply to #4)
Goldie
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Sex is not love.....101 Goldie

Dec 14 - 10AM (Reply to #5)
kelliejean123
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thank you, goldie.

Dec 14 - 10AM (Reply to #6)
Goldie
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You can

Dec 14 - 11AM (Reply to #7)
kelliejean123
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goldie your a life saver.

Dec 14 - 11AM (Reply to #8)
Goldie
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Yes this fallacy that they will change for another

Dec 14 - 1PM (Reply to #11)
kelliejean123
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I cant find

Dec 14 - 2PM (Reply to #12)
Goldie
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It is here

Dec 14 - 1PM (Reply to #10)
Abigail
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Spot on advice

Dec 14 - 12PM (Reply to #9)
Hunter
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Goldie

Dec 13 - 8PM
jjj1984
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Hi kelliejean

Dec 13 - 8PM
jennifer21
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You are not alone