Help
Help
I'm so ashamed to admit this but I know this is the place to get the help I need quickly!!!!
My Narc wants me to meet him today and I AGREED! After I agreed I got sick and nauseated and felt nothing but SHAME. I still haven't canceled but I know I have to!! Part of me wants to go and listen to the lies. Yes, I know in my brain that is all it will be. But, part of me wants to go and hear what he has to say. That part of me is my heart that still loves this sick, twisted, insane, piece of garbage! My heart seems to be a little stronger than my common sense! I know where this is going and what it will turn out to be!!! He wants sex!!!! I know that is all he wants! He wants to appease me and say beautiful things to me so he can get his fix!
I'm sure the new girlfriend has NO IDEA what he's up to today! It makes me SO FREAKING PISSED OFF to see him be so blatant about cheating on her with me because I know he was doing the same thing to me!!! Of course he swears up and down he never cheated on me and the only reason he is doing it to her is because he can't let go of me and can't stop thinking about me! WHATEVER! He's a lying, cheating PIG!
What is WRONG WITH ME!!?? DAMNIT! This shouldn't even be a thought in my head! I was back on NC and then crashed and burned this morning after one text message! Why is it so hard to be strong and make the right decisions when you KNOW what he is and you've seen the true colors?? He's doing to the new GF what he did to me for years so how can I even consider it??? HOW!?? Something in my brain is not working! I'm smarter than this.
The thoughts of seeing him makes me crazy. My heart is excited looking for that junkie fix and my brain is screaming!!!!
Please help! I know this is WRONG WRONG WRONG but my heart and my brain are having a major tug-of-war!
I can't believe I've put myself right back in the line of fire.
I was in a similar situation
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You see sara the new supply
I'm crashing
Ha ha ha!! Did his wittle
Unplug the damn phone, have
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He'd probably like that,
Hang in there, Sara
Ally
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Awww! You are so sweet.
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He has tried to talk to me
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