Its the beginning of my 2nd day NC, and i woke up this morning feeling so pathetic about all the desperate things i did. I let him string me along only to discard me. I knew deep down he had no love for me. I had sex with him even, after the break up. I kept telling him i needed a committment. He agree and said we are going slow. It was a lie. The entire time he was devaluing me again, being hot then cold. He never just had the decency to say "its over". He was stringing me along for some sick amusement. I was such an idiot.