Affecting other parts of life

Hi Barbara, Thank you. I actually listened to you and Lisa on an old blog radio today. I am in counseling - once a week. I don't know why, but I feel like things are really unraveling lately, more that in the first few months. Part of it, I think, is realizing that he's not coming back. He always has in the past - about 10-12 times over the years. While I know him coming back isn't good for me, it still makes me feel like why not this time? As if he got his act together and realized I wasn't good enough. He's the healthy one because if he wasn't he'd be back. He always framed everything as doing me a favor. So selfless of him! What you say rings true although I can't quite articulate it - but it's as if I don't know how to even assert boundaries, so when I do, this is how it's coming out. I guess I am incredibly angry.