Need Help! Was Really Surprised By My Reaction Today
Need Help! Was Really Surprised By My Reaction Today
I need help wit this. One of my favorite aunties had open heart surgery last night. She had been in the hospital since last saturday but i couldn't go see her because my Nh work at this hospital and I heard he knew she was there and was visiting often.
I knew that he was off on saturdays so I ventured out to the hospital to see my aunt and she is doing well and my mom and I visited for awhile. My auntie is such a sweetheart and thinks everyone is nice so she said that my NH/Psycho is so nice. well I proceeded to say "Oh Yeah, well you didn't live with him". I than skipped the subject and ended the visit a short while later.
When I got home I cried my eyes out and I felt like a piece of shit. I started thinking If he is so nice to everyone and such a great guy, why was he so mean and horrible to me. This is the same man that spit on me, punched me, choked me, cheated on me, called another woman while actually having sex with me to come and join in. This is my husband! If he is so fucking great why would he treat his wife of 23 years like shit? How do they fool everyone around them and make us second guess ourselves.
I walked out of that hospital second guessing my experience with him. Now i know that all of this horrible stuff happened so why am I thinking that for one mili second that maybe he is nice.
I know that he was not nice to me he was evil and mean and horrific to me and thats all that counts.
If they can be so nice to everyone else, why are the so terrible to the people that lives with them and share their lives with them? It made me feel as though he was so mean to me because something is wrong with me.
Although I had this setback It has made me see how truly fucked up in the head he is because he can be two different people and I do not like either one of them. Because it just show how deceitful he is.
5 months NC! and determined to stay NC forever!
The bastard and your family
Yes helldweller
victimnomore
Same here...
Susan32 Yep!
victimnomore
VNM
idealk9nyc
victimnomore
He IS crawling around under
It is all an act
yeah you were too close
I do not want the peace which passeth understanding, I want the understanding which bringeth peace.
--Helen Keller
alittledark
victimnomore
((((((VNM))))))) Unfortunatel
Victimnomore,,Briseis is right
Amazed, this is Amazing...
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SPINNING
victimnomore
VNM, you are on
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Briseis LMAO!
victimnomore