I think I hate men now
I think I hate men now
I used to be really sweet and innocent. Now I have these horrible thoughts... Its been going on since the divorce. I feel like a narc about men (only men). I have no empathy... Sometimes, when one rubs me the wrong way because of how he looks (there was this guy last semester in my sociology class who's neck bothered me for some reason so much and I used to dream about punching him the face), I want to spit on them.
When they hit on me, which happens daily at school, I laugh at them, ridicule them, and sometimes I go out of my way to shame them. Then there are the ones who are 'useful', I use them then discard them. I have fantasies about going through my life destroying men. Its scaring me.
I told my psychologist about it-maybe we should talk about it more. She seemed undisturbed.
This sucks so bad. I feel so horrible about it, but I have been hurt by any man I ever loved, including my dad. They just make me sick. Women, on the other hand, I love. I hate to see them in pain or hurting. ugh...
Sounds like
Journey on...
Why do you mistreat the men
All I can say is you need to
I can understand