just writing it out
just writing it out
Before I forget it:
His texts are first giving me a feeling of fix.
After that I can sleep well.
Seems I need antidepressants.
Since my brain chemistry seem to miss something.
When he texts, I feel weird empty the next day, and I am scared, and I realize, I am the one who has wished that the whole time, that he is gone, even when I wished him near me, when I got my fix, I see, where should that go too? Him coming? NO. Relationship. NO? Love. No.
What I really want is, peace and happiness with myself. Now I am saying it and I can feel it, it is not just a sentence I write cause I know its the right thing, this is my wish who was covered through grieve.
I am just writing it out, cause maybe tomorrow, my mind is not as clear again, and I'll might not be able to remember again what happened today.
ok I came to the conclusion
Jen, I am concerned. I am
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
Betty thank you
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It would have rung my alarm
ok this creeps me out now
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Why is it not possible to
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and that line
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