It's Jaycee, Thank you for your concern
It's Jaycee, Thank you for your concern
Betty emailed me and asked if I were ok, I told her, no, Im not doing well trying desperately to get better. having such a hard time, have hit rock bottom in every sense, wishing I could feel better and get my life together. I just cant right now. Im so sad and heartbroken over this pos, but so difficult after being with him for twenty four years, and living an illusion, yes, i know, it was only an illusion, but it has effected me and my kids terribly. my daughter is using again, and is out of control, trying to get her into a program but shes fighting me on it and lying at every turn, promising she will go, then, saying shes fine. my son, is doing well in the army, as he has gotten another promotion, but hes drinking alot and is very moody. hes very bitter about his father, and i know its eating him alive. I wish things were different, i wish i could stop caring the way my hN has stopped caring, but still, he calls and texts and comes here telling me how sorry he is for what he has put me through and how much he regrets it and how unhappy he is. i know all bullshit, but for the moment i will pretend i accept his apology and pretend i feel sorry for him, but i dont, and i know hes a psychopath, a textbook psychopath. i accept he doesnt love me and never did, but i know every word out of his mouth is an utter lie and that breaks my heart, if he were truly sorry, i could accept his moving on, and someday forgive him, but for him to continue to string me along, knowing how sick i am over it, is devastating. and please, I know some of you think you are giving me tough love, but some of your posts are downright mean. I know everyone here has their own pain, and i empathize, i wouldnt care if you asked the same question a hundred times, all i know is i would just give you my thoughts, i wouldnt rip you apart for being weak, as i know how weak i am. thank you again for your concern, i will someday, i hope, be well, right now, im in the throws of a thousand different emotions, and have the added devastation of my kids to contend with, as well. jaycee
Jaycee, I don't think I have
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Jaycee!!
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awe jaycee!!
thanks for such a wonderful welcome back
Jaycee
psychopath
Im so glad your back honey.
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
betty
Jaycee
Hang tight. The relief will
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
(((((((Jaycee))))))
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girls thanks for those prayers, as I need them
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I am so sorry. It is
Peace. J
Jaycee