sorry to take up so much space
sorry to take up so much space
it seems i need reassurance every day from you guys, i'm so sorry.
i'm getting so afraid lately... afriad i won't meet anyone else. i'm lonely, and starting to miss what i had, even though in so many ways it was shit.
i feel like a failure, i feel responsible, and i feel sad. i'm afraid of making it on my own. i'm still in school, and he took care of me.
i'm hurt that he doesnt even want me back, even though i tried so damn hard to be good to him, i'm 14 years younger, and i worshipped the ground he walked on.
i feel like a disgarded piece of shit.
meanwhile, he's not even thinking of me. we never seem to get out 'revenge' and when i feel this way, him being a pychopath or a narc, is no comfort to me. i just don't know why i couldn't adapy enough to make it work.
there is no comforting myself with 'he'll regret it', or 'he'll never be happy', or even 'he'll be sorry for how mean he was to me'. no... i just have to be ok. and today, i'm not. i have felt this way for weeks. i feel myself backsliding. i feel lonely, ugly, useless....
the newness of being alone has worn off and i'm jealous of him moving on and findind someone else. i alwasy felt like i was just a warm body, but now i know. my heart is broken and everytime i think its getting better, it turns out it's not and i'm afraid the pain will never end. i loved him so much...
it meant nothing....
Fierflie...lets go through this some...I'll try my best...
SO YOU WERE PLACED HERE ON
HOW? AND, SO YOU WANT HIM
i feel like a
YOU MUSN'T BE SORRY, WE ARE
sweetheart take your space
i would never get a song. i
How little I meant to him...
susan
Indifference as the opposite of love
susan
Psychopaths have a perverse sense of empathy...
i guess there are two ways
Fierflie
Nevergoback
i have been divorced two
sorry about spelling typos writing on my phone
take that cheuqe and build your life
Fooled no longer and beautiful Fierflie
i'll read your post. i'm
hes not just a f ing
Mindcontrol fierflie
fierflie