when the D&D you, but they don't leave
when the D&D you, but they don't leave
I just thought, for those of you who are sad that they left you I would tell you what it's like to live with them for years after they devalue you (or atleast how it was for me)
I think you go crazy trying to get their attention. For me, I spend copious amounts of energy on my looks. Then he started to tell me I was vain and shallow. I almost became like a histrionic myself. I would sit on his lap and beg him to give me attention, beg for sex, and just generally stare at him waiting for him to look at me. Then, I would go crazy looking through his things, spying on him, etc. Sometimes i would find things of a questionable nature, sometimes not. I obsessed over husband, I forgot who I was. I despised him, I despised myself. I got so insanely jealous we could barely leave the house. Usually we would fight. sometimes, i was so crazy, that he hadn't done anything wrong! He also despised me. My friends told me they couldn't take it anymore. They told me they didn't recognise me and it hurt them too much to spend time with me. It didn't matter anyhow because they just got in the way of me obsessing over my husband. When we last visited my family he made joked about raping and torturing my neices 16 year old friend while snuggling in bed. Then my nieces friend said he was 'leering' at her, and when i gently told him, he raged at me. how dare i even think he would do such a thing after he made a joke about raping her the night before?
I was a horrible friend. I couldn't feel empathy MYSELF! I was constantly in crisis mode. I got sick all the time. i looked like a barbie doll with blank eyes. I almost litterally lost it. Then, when he finally did leave, I had put every7thing I had into my marraige and loving him and trying to make it work, only to (seemingly) push him away more, that I tried to kill myelf. I wanted to die. I felt like my life was over.
It's a blessing when they let go and leave you. If mine had done that I would be SO much better off. I just thought I would post that to give some of your hearts some comfort. love you guys...
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yes the ignoring is horrible
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I did about 3 months of him
scoop my situation was a little different
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