First Session with New Therapist
First Session with New Therapist
Today is my first session with a new therapist and I am sooooo nervous! The last time I went to counseling, all the therapist talked about was HER life and didn't address any of my issues at all. In fact, she couldn't remember who I was and would share personal information about other patients, thinking the information she was sharing was info I had given her about me!
I am so desperate for validation - someone to tell me I am not imagining things or being too sensitive... I barely know where to begin with this new therapist. I mean, how do you explain to someone who hasn't lived this kind of situation how effed up it is and how your mind gets all twisted around by the N until you start to believe YOU'RE the one with the pathology and that all the problems in the relationship really ARE your fault!
I have my journal and I feel like just handing it to the therapist to read, and not saying a word until she is finished with it. LOL! I don't know how to make sense of this situation myself, let alone share it with someone else.
I didn't even tell my NH that I got a new therapist or that I am going for counseling. He discouraged my going the first time, because he thought it would "make things worse". At the time of my first counseling sessions, I was experiencing horrible anxiety attacks. I got no support, and in fact, NH was more negative about our relationship than usual; there was no support there. He has tried to make me feel weird about having been for counseling, like there was something wrong with me.
I was hoping to get some advice from the ladies (and gents) of the Board on how you even begin to explain what you're going through to someone else... Thank you!!!!!!!
I agree with the advice
Advice
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