Is anyone else out there still having a hard time getting over a N after a year or more?
Is anyone else out there still having a hard time getting over a N after a year or more?
Hello to everyone, was just curious to know if others are still struggling, like myself, in coming to terms with the Ex N in their lives and trying to get over him, after he has devalued and discarded you...for me it has been a little over a year and a half, and while i feel better than last summer when I was in the throngs of grief and crying, still feel the scars and wonder if they will every heal, almost like scabs from say chickenpox when you were a kid and it took some time for those to go away! I remember last spring after he moved out of state and I sent him a cute card, saying I was grieving over the loss of him and us and he sent me back a hateful,spiteful letter saying grieving BS, i just went on the internet looking for someone else, true example of his horrible self loathing....As others have said before me, this is the toughest ordeal i have ever faced and I keep reminding myself what life would really be like living with him, for me I think I would have walked away a bag lady with little or no sanity left, he was such a controlling Jeckyl and Hyde type of personality, full of anger,rage and a mix of fear within him, always down and depressed, never happy or a smile on his face.He hjad such serous issues with women, starting with his mother who wanted a little girl, having had a boy.and he said he reconciled that issue but I think not.
I did find love again BUT...
Yes, it is an ongoing struggle
onwithmylife....hi is aceonelady
Aceonelady
one year and one month
alma
faithinthefuture
thanks for the comments everyone