A ting of guilt...
A ting of guilt...
Well poop... just when I thought I was flying high and not giving a crap I get a message tonight (Tues) after work that 'N' has been in a car wreck today, while I was at work and celebrating in my mind how strong I have become, how free I feel.
"He's ok but pretty banged up, a woman pulled out in front of him and it looks like the truck is totaled". The message read.
The message continued, "He also wrecked his motorcycle Sunday it's pretty scratched up". (the bike is his pride and joy).
Sunday was the day after the TacoBell drivethru incident. And when I matter of factly informed him "it's over, it will never be again, I have moved on."
While I am assured within myself I will NOT contact him in any way, I also had tinges of guilt as well. I played in my mind all the "old recordings" of how I needed to "be there for him in this tough time"... that he didn't have a vehicle now and would need to get around.
Also, the place in me where the slightest of paranoia resides emanated some fear... "OMG, he's gonna have a new vehicle and I am not going to know what it looks like, what if he's following me and I don't know it, and he follows me home. I just cannot let him know where I live.
*crying*
I don't feel guilty for being strong, for feeling free, I don't feel guilty for leaving, I don't feel guilty for reiterating to him that it is over and I have moved on...
So... what do I feel guilty about?
With sincerity,
iAmMINE
It really is fascinating.
iammine
"used", what a wonderful reminder
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
iAmMINE
USED, you're right...
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
iAmMINE
Who sent you this
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
betty2020 validation
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
Did he feel a ting of guilt
NC
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
One little thing
wholeagain ~~ CHEERS
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
Tinge... tinge of
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.