I still want to believe him sometimes, what is wrong with me?
I still want to believe him sometimes, what is wrong with me?
I sometimes want to believe his bs sometimes, as if I am hoping even one word out of his mouth is the truth. I have know this man for twenty five years, what in the world would make me think anything he says is truth? Why do I desperately cling to the hope that he can tell the truth occasionally? I thought about all the bs he has thrown my way over the years and then noticed the little sidebar call Narcspeak, I went to it and I swear almost everything listed on that page was him. Every word he has said about anything over the years was listed there, not all exact, some kind of, but I almost fell off my chair laughing, but then, got so depressed knowing that he truly is a narc and is seriously damaged, and how damaged i am because of my relationship with him. He is a sick son of bitch. I can't imagine how anyone could be so cold and calculating, and have an alterior motive to everything they do and say. oh God it's scary, how did I get here, I mean, here, where I am in my life? Am I that stupid and so easily manipulated that I would have wasted twenty plus years loving a psychopath? I am really down, more so that i have been so gullible for so many years, now i am as damaged as he is. I cant even function properly, I look at people and think, are you lying too? I want to know how someone, like myself, very educated, used to be very vivacious and outgoing, had everything going for myself, could be sucked into such a mess, and now I have to deal with the fallout of finally at this age, getting rid of him, and still cant get rid of him, hes like a bad disease, cancerous. Someone please tell me what the hell is wrong with me?????
Read the book, "Malignant
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obssessing
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how about counceling
HOW ABOUT COUNSELING
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Response to counseling
response to counseling
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Realization
It takes a lot of work and
it takes a lot of hard work
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"Natural" and "Normal"
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