The hunted
The hunted
I've been NC for 8 months. A mutual friend of ours is in town. He doesn't know the proper story and I'm trying to keep it that way. He had a friendship with this person before our involvement.
I don't want to make matters worse for myself so my strategy is just to lay low...permanently. Anyway mutual friend is now playing match-maker (to some degree) between us. I know the P is pushing for this through the mutual friend based on things the mutual friend is saying "Oh don't you hate it when 'what could have been never gets to be' because of circumstance and the fact that things get misconstrued by each party to the detriment of the entire relationship when all it needed was an opportunity to flourish?". Ah no. I don't want those kinds of fkng opportunities I just want this crazy P out of my fkng life. I was doing so well, I was almost completely over thinking about this fkstick and now yesterday I was beside myself with anxiety and fear because I do not want to see this person again and the mutual friend would be in shock if he knew what really happened...and of course the P paints the "total misunderstanding" picture. Anyway now I am thinking about him and all that sh*t again. This enormous wound has opened and it is killing me. My mind is racing I can only think abotu this total idiot and I'm fantasising about having sex with him again! I don't want to fantasize about this ars*hole. If I see him I know I will crumble, he'll lure me back and I'll be on this merry-go-round. I don't WANT to cut off contact w the mutual friend because we're very close and he is an amazing friend and fabulous time. God. It feels like square fkng 1 all over. I am not supply!!!!!!! Really need to vent. GRRRRR.
Im so sorry this happened to
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If your friend is so
I'm sorry
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