Update on my life...
Update on my life...
Hi all.
I haven’t posted in a bit. It’s been two weeks NC. Although the longest I’ve ever gone is 34…so I have a ways to go. We officially broke up 5 months ago, so lately I’ve tried really hard not to focus on it. I’ve been going out with my friends a lot, and socializing.
I guess what is really hard for me right now is feeling like I am criminalizing my ex. How can I really diagnosis him as anything? What if I just brought out the worse in him? What if I am just making excuses for my behavior?
I wish my self esteem wasn’t so shot. I literally feel like I will never get a guy to love me for me again. I don’t miss my ex so much, it’s more the idea of him I miss. The idea of finding my soul mate and not having to date again. I don’t know why my mind wants me to feel depressed without him. I was crying all the time with him!
I just worry so much there are things wrong with me, and I will realize when I date another guy that I will bring out the same behaviors I brought out in my ex. My best friend is acting the SAME way she did with her old boyfriend with her new one. So, what if his actions didn’t cause me to act clingy and mistrusting. What if I will always be that way?
what if?
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Burnt by my soul mate