I slept with him and I don't know how to recover...
I slept with him and I don't know how to recover...
I slept with the enemy. I don't know what happened to my self esteem, to all the days I spent healing, I screwed it all up.
He kept on asking to meet. We did. I told him how much he hurt me. He sat there and cried with me, and told me how sorry he was. He told me he loved me, and hopes we can workout someday.
It felt so real. Our connection was so powerful, I didn't even think twice about it. We agreed to continue with NC..and date other people, and see where we end up.
I woke up this morning feeling like I want to die. I slept with a guy that made me cry everyday for 5 months. That left me when I needed him most. I slept with him knowing he slept with other girls. I objectified myself. How am I ever going to redeem myself? Now..how am I ever going to heal?
What kills me most is that he STILL wants to be single. If he really loved me like he said he did, and would do anything to date me again. I can't believe I slept with him.
How do I redeem myself. I know I did it to myself, but I honestly feel so freaking depressed and stupid.
What everyone has said here
Sarah
Sarah787
Not Stupid
Love Yourself!!
Pick yourself back up
Right .. first of all stop
Let it be just one reminder
Peace. J