It was a difficult day for some reason....
It was a difficult day for some reason....
I was D&D'd about two weeks ago ( I think for the 4th time). I caught him in a lie (again) and called him on it, so he did the usual and got angry at me. Even though I know this man is not good for me, I have been crying on and off these past two weeks. I have been involved with this man for about 5 years. I thought we were so close. He has lied to me so much, but I kept going back to him because I felt he was my soul mate. I was so very much in love with him. I guess he always had OW on the side and I didn't really realize it. I can't believe I put up with it. Anyway, he is in FACT an N and I will never trust him again. Over the weekend, I took a pair of sizzors and cut up the night gowns he bought me into little pieces, and everything else he sent me. I deleted all his messages, etc.
But, the funny thing about today is that I felt this anxiety in me that something was happening or going to happen. It is hard to explain. These past two nights I have had dreams about him, nothing special, just these weird dreams. And all day today I felt like either I was going to hear from him or that something was going to happen, I'm not sure what. AS the weeks go by I wonder if he will ever make an attempt to reach me again. I can't believe that he could let it all go, but since he is a N, he probably can. I guess it's just a matter of supply. But, today was so weird bc I kept feeling this anxiety that something was happening but I don't know what.
Has anyone here ever felt this type of thing or knows what it might mean?
It is called 'seperation
not separation anxiety
Feelings
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"Soldier, don't confuse your rank with MY authority!"
NoNarcingZone
I love that!! Great idea!!
LOL
I am also in the newer
great read
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deprograming phase sucks
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calming the obsessional thoughts
ACgirl
Barbara, I had no idea this was deprogramming
Its terrible!!
smileyfacepr
Right On Smiley!!! You give
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betty2020
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ACgirl
I still want to confront him
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