I messed up....
I messed up....
Since I feel so accountable to all of you, I have to say, I replied to one of his txts. I was doing so well for 6 weeks, he stalks me and i do well by acting indifference and quite frankly, did not feel anything for him. Well- this morning, he txted me. First one said " Good morning beautiful- I ignored that one as I have ignored all of them and 2 hours later ,he txted he was going to another gym and wanted me to come with him and he was coming over tomorrow and wanting to see me to talk with me. I was upset as I felt I have done everything I could do to ignore him and be indifferent yet he feels he has every right to see me? So- regretfully I txted him saying no, I don't want to go to another gym with him and he should start going there from now and no-I'll be out of town and i never wanted to see him as our dysfunctional relationship is and has been over. He txted back "i will do what I want when I want like you do" . I told him never txt me and to leave me alone. He did not reply since. I am extremely disappointed in myself for becoming weak as I did. I'm embarrassed that I could even give advice to women here to go NC when I just messed up myself and mostly I'm angry at myself bc all it caused me was upset, angry pissed-off feelings I used to have when I was with him. I was doing so well before he stalked me down one day 2 weeks ago. I was feeling so much better and now I feel as if i'm starting day 1 NC except without the crying and hurt feelings. I'm sorry for letting myself and others down. You would think I would have listened to my own words and others. He is such a loser and I just wasted a day to mark off of my calendar all for a loser like him.
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women comments
I wouldn't even count that
Oh Please!
enoughalready
Enough
Oh heck i lost count how
Enoughalready
relapsed also
lili