Cursed
Cursed
So, for the past 2 weeks I've been feeling happy and thought I was over it all. Just found out that N is happily partnered with someone I was interested in. Why is this bothering me??
I guess I feel left behind. Seems like everyone I know has got someone. All of my friends are coupled. It never bothered me before. I know N will eventually get bored and will cheat on this person. But somehow I'm not getting satisfaction from that fact. I think he was cheating with him on me. It bothers me that he's a a-hole and is getting what he wants. Here I am a somewhat good person, I do what's right, I live the golden rule...but I get the depression....he gets the happiness.
Was I just being used until this other person became available? I'm just feeling totally defeated. I wish I could cry...but I haven't done that since childhood.
No, I'm not going to do anything desperate....it's not my style. I'll ride out this bad period. But where's the justice? I feel as if I'm paying for past sins because nothing is going right at the moment. My life was going great before I met N. I feel as if N cursed me with horrible luck. I hate to sound dramatic...but WTF???
Thanks for listening,
Sean
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new "newest girlfriend
It's all a facade, a front,
where is the JUSTICE??!!
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