Rinse... Repeat... Rinse... Repeat.... What is wrong with this picture?

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#1 Nov 7 - 7PM
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Rinse... Repeat... Rinse... Repeat.... What is wrong with this picture?

I'm owning the shame of my weakness. I took his call... No excuses. How much verbal assault will I tolerate? I had been so strong, feeling such power with NC = FUCK YOU!
WHY CAN'T I ADMIT HE WILL NEVER CHANGE? Why do I keep going back for more? Why can't I truly believe this will never change? I'm back to square one.
I feel like an absolute IDIOT. The NARC invited me to spend his 50th birthday weekend with him. I didn't accept the invitation immediately. In actuality, it seemed so ODD that he would invite me. As our conversation wound down, he asked what I was doing that night. "Carving pumpkins with my boys", When I asked what he was doing, he responded, "Going on a date". WTF? He just invited me for his birthday two weeks from that day. Un-fucking real. I was so taken back that I said, " Good bye" and hung up the phone.
The next morning I received an email saying all he wanted was peace. He knows his disclosure about his 'dinner date' wasn't well recieved. He went on to say he should have listened to my plea for NC. Blah, blah, blah.
The last sentence said "Let's not get together for my birthday.Let's let time pass..."
REALLY?
I did not respond...
Then, the hideous phone call telling me I'm acting 16 years old hanging up saying "Good bye". Told me I was selfish and did not accept him for who he is.
This was the kicker....
Claimed HE is the only person who loves me so much and respects me so mch and is honest with me. Said he wasn't being mean spirited, but nobody tells me the truth because I scare the shit out of people because I am strong willed and bossy. Said, "oh ya, you do so much for others, but it's definitely 'you' focused." (For the record, I am not the person he detailed above.)
It went on and on... I was silent. Acutually in shock... He has said some very hurtful things over time, but this was brutal.
It's odd how their verbal assaults begin to have little to no impact. He is correct, I do not accept him for who he is.....

Rinse... Repeat... Ugh!

Nov 8 - 5AM
Not-this-time
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I know the feeling

Nov 8 - 5AM
Goldie
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You got that one straight buddy; I DON'T ACCEPT WHO YOU ARE!!!!

Nov 8 - 4AM
Deidre99
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unfortunately, nothing he

Nov 8 - 3AM
Used
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freeme

Nov 8 - 7AM (Reply to #20)
FreeMe (not verified)
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Used... You are so right!

Nov 8 - 3AM
brinamarie
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Mine used to say "I can't

Nov 8 - 3AM
Janie53
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FreeMe

Nov 8 - 3AM
Hunter
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Validation.. Now block his

Nov 8 - 2AM
Sickofhim
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FreeMe....I'm so sorry that

Nov 7 - 10PM
Journey
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Ugh, FreeMe, this is exactly

Journey on...

Nov 7 - 8PM
neverlookback
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Rinse, Repeat

Nov 7 - 8PM (Reply to #13)
Ruby
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It really is, as you

Nov 7 - 8PM
Done sourcing
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So what did we learn from

Nov 7 - 8PM (Reply to #11)
FreeMe (not verified)
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Done Soucing

Nov 7 - 8PM
neverlookback
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contact

Nov 7 - 8PM (Reply to #7)
FreeMe (not verified)
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Awwww... Neverlookback

Nov 8 - 4AM (Reply to #8)
neverlookback
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FreeMe

Nov 8 - 5AM (Reply to #9)
neverlookback
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wanted to clarify

Nov 7 - 8PM
Ruby
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Who he is.. Who you are What

Nov 7 - 8PM (Reply to #2)
FreeMe (not verified)
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Masquerade

Nov 8 - 2AM (Reply to #5)
Alissa
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" But he ending is always the

Nov 7 - 8PM (Reply to #3)
Ruby
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Oh the amount of times that I

Nov 8 - 3AM (Reply to #4)
Sickofhim
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That's so true....