Gonna bust myself here
Gonna bust myself here
This is what is going through my head right now.
I was going to go by a cheap phone so he won't have my new number. I moved several hundred miles away from him and then changed my number. I was wanting to just hear his voice. What I hope to accomplish by that, I don't know.
I started a clean slate and I don't want to taint a damn thing here with anything to do with him. I need to remember that.
So, maybe if I out myself right here, right now, I won't be tempted to contact him.
Why do I think I just want to hear his voice? I know I am lying to myself. I want him to have changed. I want to hear that all the bad stuff I came to see in him was not true and all in my head. I want to think it was me, not him, and that means I can do something about it. I want him to be what I thought he was.
I let him into a part of me that I haven't let anyone into before and now I feel so lonely and empty. I didn't feel that way before I met him. I have this idea bouncing around in my head that only he can fix it.
Hey Sta, You said a few
You've already made a really
I have had a mini epiphany
Deidre :)
Honestly
Secondtimearound
I see. lol I can't help you
s- l- o- w d-o-w-n
Thanks
gotta love the bounce