Scared
Scared
Today I feel scared and I don't know why. Something in the weather or something is reminding me of last year at this time when the abuse was so severe. I burst out crying today a few times and I don't know why. I can actually feel it now, how I felt when he was torchuring me and I was begging for him to let me go and he kept dragging me back and I cried in ways I never experienced. Half screaming for help and crying in terror. Anyway for whatever reason, it's all up in my face today and im horrified by the sadistic things he did to me. I hate that I know what abuse is, I never wanted to know such a thing. how do I soothe myself through this fear. He was really crazy and today I felt scared that maybe he will come back and kill me or rape me. I used to find black gloves all over his place. Now that I am remembering more and more, I'm getting scared. It's been almost a year, just enough time for his last victim to be goin down the path to hell. It scares me that he may Hoover one day. I'm scared of him lately, I don't know why. I'm not scared I'd fall for a Hoover, I'm just scared of him, increasingly and I don't get why it's worsening. how do I rid this terror associated with my thoughts. I've never known that kind of torchure, fear or sadism. My father was an n but he wasn't sadistic. My x is a psychopath. I wish he would die so that he would be off this earth. I feel uneasy. I'm not the biggest believer in premonitions but I feel disturbed inside, like something is up. I wish I had a big dog with big teeth.
the only
No worries I would NEVER go
Taking a mental trip into the
Ds, I like the hell analogy.
Gems
Hey walking
Hi awesome, nothing has
Scared...,
It sounds like PTSD
I agree
Walking....
Good thinking , Round 3
paranoia and fear
Thanks everyone, I had a
Disrespectful..
Disrespectful..
Luv, I have to believe time