With "getting it" and understanding comes deep sadness . . .
With "getting it" and understanding comes deep sadness . . .
It clicked for me, right? I got it. I GET it. I understand what these men do. I understand what my exnarc did.
And now the floodgates have opened up. :( What incredible sadness comes with knowing he didn't love me. That I was used. For five years. That he was sleeping with me, telling me I was the only one, that I was the one he'd change for, he'd settle down, stop running around . . . and he was wooing other women still. I was replaced right at about the time I was ready to walk away . . . I broke a date we were supposed to have because I knew I didn't want him/this/the pain anymore . . . and then he disappeared. He had supply already lined up for this moment, and he disappeared.
He'd been pulling away, I knew that, and he blamed me--and I constantly apologized. But I never wanted to believe he had someone in the wings. Why could I not wrap my head around that until now?? That's what these guys DO. And I didn't want to believe it--not about my guy, anyway. NOT HIM.
He cheated his way all through his marriage of 10 years . . . why in the world did I think it would be different with me??
SO sad right now. Please tell me that eventually this pain and these tears will stop. :(
Ohhhh the sadness..
Sadness !
There is
Juliette....I understand the sadness
Thank you, Jenna :)
yes dear
a million more tears
so true
Two Things
Hi Juliette, Just so u don't
Sad but better to be in reality!
Oh Juliette, yes, the pain
Journey on...
Yup, ain't no doubt...
That's EXACTLY it, sickofhim . . .
Hollow Man
DEAD
Juliette
And the intensity of that
And the intensity of that....