With "getting it" and understanding comes deep sadness . . .

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#1 Sep 3 - 7AM
Juliette
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With "getting it" and understanding comes deep sadness . . .

It clicked for me, right? I got it. I GET it. I understand what these men do. I understand what my exnarc did.

And now the floodgates have opened up. :( What incredible sadness comes with knowing he didn't love me. That I was used. For five years. That he was sleeping with me, telling me I was the only one, that I was the one he'd change for, he'd settle down, stop running around . . . and he was wooing other women still. I was replaced right at about the time I was ready to walk away . . . I broke a date we were supposed to have because I knew I didn't want him/this/the pain anymore . . . and then he disappeared. He had supply already lined up for this moment, and he disappeared.

He'd been pulling away, I knew that, and he blamed me--and I constantly apologized. But I never wanted to believe he had someone in the wings. Why could I not wrap my head around that until now?? That's what these guys DO. And I didn't want to believe it--not about my guy, anyway. NOT HIM.

He cheated his way all through his marriage of 10 years . . . why in the world did I think it would be different with me??

SO sad right now. Please tell me that eventually this pain and these tears will stop. :(

Sep 3 - 10PM
sweetpeasarah
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Ohhhh the sadness..

Sep 3 - 6PM
midwestdiva
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Sadness !

Sep 3 - 6PM
neverlookback
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There is

Sep 3 - 10AM
Jenna H
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Juliette....I understand the sadness

Sep 3 - 10AM (Reply to #13)
Juliette
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Thank you, Jenna :)

Sep 4 - 4AM (Reply to #16)
brokenacc
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yes dear

Sep 3 - 10AM (Reply to #14)
Jenna H
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a million more tears

Sep 4 - 4AM (Reply to #15)
brokenacc
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so true

Sep 3 - 9AM
GracefullyFree
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Two Things

Sep 3 - 9AM
Puppy1955
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Hi Juliette, Just so u don't

Sep 3 - 9AM
petite7heaven
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Sad but better to be in reality!

Sep 3 - 7AM
Journey
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Oh Juliette, yes, the pain

Journey on...

Sep 3 - 7AM
Sickofhim
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Yup, ain't no doubt...

Sep 3 - 8AM (Reply to #2)
Juliette
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That's EXACTLY it, sickofhim . . .

Sep 3 - 9AM (Reply to #7)
GracefullyFree
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Hollow Man

Sep 3 - 9AM (Reply to #6)
petite7heaven
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DEAD

Sep 3 - 8AM (Reply to #5)
Radiolady
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Juliette

Sep 3 - 8AM (Reply to #3)
Sickofhim
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And the intensity of that

Sep 3 - 8AM (Reply to #4)
Radiolady
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And the intensity of that....