12 hours nc. Please give support.
12 hours nc. Please give support.
I am struggling. I am depressed and distracted. I am trying to keep busy. Yesterday, I hated him so much yet today I am considering pleading with him. I know the cycle I have been "broken up" with at least 200 times over the past 2 years. I know it is all ridiculous yet the addiction is still so strong. Anyone who knows me would be shocked that I am distraught over this TOTAL LOSER. Especially given that I have a good husband and kids. I understand I am repeating my childhood. I am working in therapy on all of this - but still I am struggling.
I hate that this is so hard. I hate him for doing this to me. I am mad at myself for putting myself in this position time and time again and continuing to go back for more. There is a part of me now hoping he texts that we are ok. I hate that I want that.
He is mean and cruel. Nothing about him is attractive to me anymore. The once fabulous sex has been nonexistent for 8 months.
Today he told me he needs a break from us because sneaking around is stressing him out and hurting his health. He named 3 other things that were stressing him out and then said "but u r easier to throw under the bus than those things.". He said he has been lazy and mean in our relationship lately because he is mad that I am married. Never mind that this wasn't an issue 3 years ago for him. The sick part is I can't tell if this is genuine or another manipulation.
I am sorry I am all over the place here. I am struggling.
If YOU have been broken up with 200 times.............
Going NC will bring you
You said there were other
Ok. I'm going to sleep
Tired girl
The problem is.....
tired
The way my brain can distort reality
Tiregirl
I haven't posted my story
Worst feeling in the world
I know ignoring him is the only power I have right now
Yep
Yep