I tried to kill myself this week

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#1 Jun 3 - 1PM
MissScout
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I tried to kill myself this week

After a year of verbal abuse (you're too fat-I now weigh 107), you look old, (I now dye my hair, had cosmetic surgery), let your hair grow out, etc.

I didn't know that he was living out of town with another woman, because he owned multiple properties in town. When he eventually told me about her I BEGGED him to tell her. I even started on medication and therapy to keep going. I literally walked out of a job one day. I was at my wit's end.

After one year of me doing everything for him, him doing nothing for me, I fell down his corridor condo steps. He berated me, left me there injured and went into his condo and started washing towels.

I was injured, made my way into his condo. He was upstairs in his two level unit. I told him I thought I had a concussion and back injury. The only assistance he gave me was to drive me home and let me drive myself to the hospital with a concussion and a back that may never heal. As a 54 y.o. daily runner, that was devastating news.

I finally called the other girlfriend, after one entire year of his lying, telling me that he was going to tell her. She is Filipino, very submissive, and I told her the entire story. She kicked him out, but took him back several days later.

Tuesday is when he told me he was piecing his relationship up with the other woman. I tried to kill myself. When my son and a family friend called him at work trying to figure out where I could have gone, he laughed and said I was unstable and was just an affair. He told them to never call him at work again.

Fortunately, I lived, only because I was found unconscious in my car in the parking deck of a local mall and rushed to the hospital.

I know it is over. My depression is very high. I had always handled problems better than most. How did I let this one man destroy me?

Jun 4 - 2PM
Deidre99
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I'm so sorry you went through

Jun 4 - 2PM (Reply to #35)
MissScout
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Deidre99

Jun 4 - 2PM (Reply to #36)
Deidre99
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I think that's the hard part

Jun 4 - 3PM (Reply to #37)
MissScout
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My Narc

Jun 4 - 12PM
fallingfoward
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You will make it!!!!!

Jun 4 - 12PM (Reply to #33)
MissScout
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Falling Forward

Jun 4 - 9AM
janemarie
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Oh Miss Scout:(

Jun 4 - 9AM (Reply to #28)
MissScout
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janemarie

Jun 4 - 2PM (Reply to #29)
janemarie
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Dont be so hard on yourself

Jun 4 - 2PM (Reply to #30)
MissScout
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RE: Don't be so hard on yourself

Jun 4 - 2PM (Reply to #31)
janemarie
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That is EXACTLY what I was

Jun 4 - 8AM
MissScout
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Re: Meds

Jun 4 - 11AM (Reply to #26)
TarHeelBlue
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PS

Jun 4 - 9AM (Reply to #21)
Janie53
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I, too, am very sensitive to

Jun 4 - 10AM (Reply to #24)
MissScout
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Thank you, Janie 53

Jun 4 - 10AM (Reply to #25)
Janie53
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MissScout

Jun 4 - 9AM (Reply to #22)
Goldie
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I am sure that you are also aware

Jun 4 - 10AM (Reply to #23)
MissScout
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You are right

Jun 4 - 8AM
onwithmylife
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Miss Scott

Jun 4 - 10AM (Reply to #19)
MissScout
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I lost myself

Jun 4 - 8AM
TarHeelBlue
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MissScout, thank God

Jun 4 - 8AM (Reply to #16)
MissScout
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Tar Heel Blue

Jun 4 - 9AM (Reply to #17)
TarHeelBlue
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He is history

Jun 4 - 8AM (Reply to #15)
onwithmylife
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tarheelblue

Jun 3 - 11PM
abreva
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You are not destroyed. You are here with us.

Jun 3 - 10PM
SetFree
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same thoughts but Set Free

Jun 3 - 9PM
Layla
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Dearest MissScout

Jun 3 - 6PM
Janie53
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Miss Scout

Jun 3 - 5PM
Goldie
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I am so sorry to hear this, it just breaks my heart

Jun 3 - 3PM
Hunter
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Look..listen to me.."NO MAN