After the N
After the N
Always reading, rarely writing ( you can check my IP)
I found the strength of posting this question only because I have seen that also other people is questioning a bit about this topic.
After the N I had a short story, I spotted the new N immediately thanks to Barbara and to this board.
Recently I found another man and I am keeping it at bay as muich as I can.
It has been 5 months now, too short time. He wanted to marry me, he still wants, he accepts any condition I have.
Mmmmhhhh....N trying to lure?
But I also wonder: what if the lack of trust following the N spoil every opportunity to build a new and satisfying life?
Right now I am thinking to pay for a research on zabasearch or mylife in order to collect info about this new man. But ......I am horrified of myself!!!!! I would never thought of that before! What is happened of me, what is happened of decent relationships? What is happened of TRUST?
Doing this research what does it mean? That I have become just like HIM?
That I am snooping in another people life just like HE did, without respecting any boundaries? Just in the name of my past wounds?
It sounds like a N excuse. And I am horrified.
What do you think?
Listen to Your Instincts
Just 5 Months
I am a private investigator
Mariline
You are always so terribly
After the N, huh?