Putting this out there....
Putting this out there....
I feel so incredibly sad tonight....really, really sad.
I've been thinking about the advice from so many gorgeous women on here...that it is ok to speak your truth...it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks...so here goes.
My husband and children are watching tv together. Tonight I can't even sit with them. I have to force myself to be part of that picture and tonight it has gotten the best of me....
I told my husband I was in love with someone else.
The someone else turned out to be a psychopath.
The psychopath pursued me, seduced me, destroyed me.
I've been NC for 14 months. I have been in therapy for this entire time...sometimes 3 times per week.
When I posted my story here I titled it ' He has destroyed me....don't think I am strong enough to recover.'
And you know what....I don't think I am.
So for all individuals seeking karma on the OW. I was the OW....and I truly don't think I'll make this. I wonder if this symbolize what many of you are hoping for in each of your scenarios.....
I was honest with everyone but the facts remain don't they?
The woman is always blamed. The man is forgiven or excused.
The woman is a slut. The man is just weak.
The woman is forever condemned. The man given chance after chance after chance.
Going back to my old life, or not giving my husband transparency to make future life choices for himself was never my option.
I truly loved M.
I didn't know it was a game.
I am not an intellectual idiot or a 'ho' but I am an emotionally starved, abused individual who was absolutely craving love, affection and the chance to be myself and be accepted.
It is very hard to accept yourself when the world is filled with hypocrisy, judgement and vilification.
It just is.
So I really don't know if I'm strong enough. No pity play. This is my truth and I'm entitled to it.
I hope this helps someone else struggling....because you are not alone xxx
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Ahhhh bgirl....
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Journey on...
Bgirl Im so sorry you're
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My dear Bgirl
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Dear bgirl, perception is all
Ive never blamed the OW in
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Hey sweetie...I love that
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I think you should ask yourself
Accepting yourself is hard.
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