under his thumb's story
under his thumb's story
tired of the FOG...
i really don't know where to begin. i feel like i have been to hell and back several times over in the past year. i have gained a tremendous insight to myself and my spouse. when i finally made the decision that i could no longer live the lie i was living i had no clue what i was in store for. i did not realize at the time he was a N. i still would love to have him clinically diagnosed to rid me of the guilt of having to figure this out on my own. when i decided to leave i starting researching and reading about emotional abuse and came across more information than i could have expected. he has shown all the classic signs and it floors me daily that i didn't see it sooner. we have been together for 15 years and dated for 3 prior to getting married. although i had seen the red flags i choose to ignore them. i even had a restraining order on him when i tried to break up with him. but he promised me the world and i wanted so badly to believe him! we had issues prior to getting married but things sure when downhill after the i do's. the children have always been my responsibility. the house, bills, cooking, cleaning, shopping, meals, doctor's visits. i did it all while working full time and too exhausted to be able to ever enjoy any of it. i feel like i have been cheated of some of the best years of my life. all the while i tried my hardest, did my best to do all my "wifely" duties. now i am just pissed at the world. i have been amazed by the support of friends and family and how they say they can't believe it took me this long to be done with it. each day brings new challenges and new frustrations, but the bottom line is i can no longer live and do out of fear , obligation and guilt!!
Well.. Welcome to Narcville..
Welcome under his thumb
victimnomore
Under, welcome to the forum!