Huge Wake-up Call!!!

I haven't been on here in a while. I shared my story back in May, I had NC on and off for months until the end of August. Then it all started. We started talking again, but it was different, I knew he was NPD & more than likely Bipolar... but I went along. I told everyone that tried to stop me I'd be ok & that I was only going in it for one thing & one thing only... while that may have been true, we eventually get used to routine & breaking routine is never easy.

September to October- great month & great sex. Horrible person, though, the narc of course. And me a dumbass because I have lots of guys to choose from, I just chose the worst possible one.
He started doing every drug you could think of, every pill you could think of, wrecking cars, losing money, getting fired, quitting school. I have known him a total of 12 months- in that time he's had 3 jobs, 2 cars, 3 different housing setups. He's on his way back to jail here soon enough. Sex is good, it can be worth it, given you're with someone that's mentally stable, financially stable, and is in it for the same reasons you are. That's not what this is about.

My wake up call #1: The 3rd time he asks me for money. He's asked before for $5 or $10. I never gave it because we weren't together... but when he asked for $100 that was it- I was going to give it until several, including sara-smile from the site urged me not to, "owing" me would be a way to stay in contact down the road. I work my ass off for what I have, what I will get, and what I deserve. He lives off my tax paying dollars.

Wake up call #2: I never drive speed limit, I don't drive recklessly, but I do speed... I speed a lot- not all the time, and I have the necessary devices to keep me from pulling tickets left & right. The night he asked me for money was the night I decided to "dump" him... he wouldn't take that, as you can imagine. I was heading home... after threatening to call 911, he let me leave. On my way home I was pulled over, got a huge ticket, had I been going a bit faster, I would have probably gotten my license suspended in my state.

Wake up call #3: We were broken up but he was still trying to talk to me like usual. He called me over 100x in one night (all missed calls). I didn't have intentions of speaking to him again, until I get a call from his friend asking if I've seen the narc. I hadn't, then I learned that he met a 38 yr old woman at the bar & went home with her. Missed work & got fired. And wrecked his friend's car that night. I've heard he's "dating" her, he's 24, and she gives him money & buys him everything in want. Poor lady... then again, she met a 24 yr old at a bar & took him home that night.

The point is, I was aware, but I went back in for more... regardless of the reason, I went back. Call me crazy. We ALL have our "wake up" calls at some point and time but choose to ignore them? Those 3 "wakeup" calls all occured in the matter of 3 days! 3 days!

You have an inner voice that whispers the right thing to you. We all have it, never ignore it. We sometimes choose to ignore that voice & listen to their dumb narc voice instead.

NC really is the way to go, I've learned it month after month & now this for me was huge!!!