I am shaking! he just showed up at my front door!
I am shaking! he just showed up at my front door!
I can't breathe. I am on the edge of a panic attack. My front door is wide open to let the sun in. he came right here- and I screamed - he surprised me!
He looked sad. He said he was sorry about my house being sold ( it had to be sold recently due to financial stress)...I said "what do you want?" he looked surprised that I was so short with him. He thought this attempt would work - it has before.
I looked right at him and said- "There is nothing to say."
He frowned and walked away.
I am shaking. this was the man I gave my whole heart to. This was the man I tried and tried to get to love me as I loved him. This was the man who broke me down over 8 years. This was the man who put his needs always before my own. This was the man who called me crazy. This was the man who lied to my face. This was the man who made me doubt all men!
how can I go on with this day? Yesterday marks 5 months of NC- the hardest thing I have ever done! He thought this seduction would work. It has before- he shows up gallantly and I cave and we are naked within the hour.
and now- I know it is OVER in my heart forever. he stole my innocence- my ability to believe that true good love exists.
I am shaking so much. this just happened 10 minutes ago. I am so proud of myself for not caving.
Please pray for me today.
SFH
HUGS dear strivingforhealing.
Not that they are all stupid but...
and my sympathies to you for the shock
You chose YOU!!!
I wish sometimes I could get
thanks so so so much. your words comfort me!
SFH
I am so very proud of you!
Didnt you just see him at the
Talk about violation of boundaries.
God -- it just shows you how
I'm missing where the
Oh Shit!!!
Great job striving!!
Good job! Sounds like my ex
striving, all of your hard work
spinning
Wow! I am sure you didn't
omg...
I felt all of your women here standing with me..
awesome!!
Halloween
strivingfor healing
Well done
Wow - I'm proud of you!!!
Very proud....