Broke NC...now a confession. Lol
Broke NC...now a confession. Lol
Ok, call me S-T-U-P-I-D. Yesterday I broke 6 weeks NC by responding to a text. Yes, Hunter yelled at me. Lol. But today, I took it to a new level. One that I am too embarrassed to tell you. I don't feel sucked back in because I understand what he's about. He works the theory of deny, deny, deny. So the "truth" is anyone's guess.
I just honestly, in my heart, don't know HOW I will go thru my life without seeing this person and having him close. Crazy thought, yes. My brain understands this is ridiculous. But my heart...and other parts....don't care!
What am I doing wrong in my recovery to have allowed him back in? I find his charisma so incredibly strong, that I cannot see myself staying away. Which I'm quite sure will ultimately lead to a repeat of the misery I experienced.....with more crying eventually on the way. Why all the hurt he caused is not paramount on my mind, I do not know. But when I saw him today....FIREWORKS. I'm in trouble....
oxytocin junkie
Replace the word "him" with
My heroin!
Crazy Train, you are not
Journey on...
I know exactly what you mean.
yep fireworks
Idenial
hunter
Indenial, the jokes on ME
dont be hard on yourself
Analyze the fireworks
crazy train
All aboard!
Ally & Friends
Crazy Train
it happens to the best of
You're not going to believe
Crazy train
Your response to him is
I do thank all of you for
CT, forget fireworks, you are messing with fire
Crazy Train, FIREWORKS?
I throw up a little in my
UFR, LOL!
My apologies in advance...
UFR, you speak the truth...
spinning
Crazy train, you are two
One will be breaking NC until
Nice post, 58&GS
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