did something stupid...broke NC and am now starting all over
did something stupid...broke NC and am now starting all over
Hi Everyone,
I have to be honest...I was feeling so down last night...well I broke NC, and I texted xN. I did not say anything about how my sister saw him and his gf and how his bestfriend (girl) talked to my sister on Friday night. I did not acknowledge that at all. I just said hello, and hope all is well. I told him I was happy and that I hoped he was too. I did say his silence hurts and I would have liked closure. Stupid me...it has been 3 weeks, I knew he wouldn't repsond. Why did I do this? Now I am back to starting all over, and feeling worse. Now I really see how NC is so important. It only hurts worse when you realize they don't care and you are not even worthy of their time to respond. 3 years, and I am just trash now, it appears I am dead to him, so I need to get back on track and rememeber this. I need to stay strong. One day at a time, but I will do this! I am going to start a calendar today and cross off each day, I am also going to start journaling my feelings, and put together a list of all the mean nasty terrible things he did to me. I am hoping this will help.
Thanks everyone for listening.
Starting day one NC. Please help me stay strong!
Thanks!
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