I need to be done with him
I need to be done with him
I thought I would start a new thread-
it is too difficult to stay...yet just as painful to cut him off....
but tonite i think was possibly the last straw...
a text to him like he wanted me to do about the business.
then nothing until an hour ago...him calling me....
no voicmail left...but instead he sent a text... he hasnt been leaving voicemails now for awhile... which i find very odd.
the text was all about him and how he got no answer when he called and he would be emailing me.
and there it is in my box from him... i sit here upset from all of this really...physically feel like i could throw up.
I just want to physically run and keep running to try an escape these feelings.
I am sure the email is talking about how busy he is and how he cant meet to discuss the project. and how he most likely is going to bed- which will leave me dangling by a string even more so....as I wait to find out the status of the project.
this would have been simple if I just had not picked up that phone to him the other nite.... I got sucked back in with him telling me how much he cared etc and nothing had changed he was just busy. I thought maybe it was all true and he would be back to being a friend and calling to see how my day was going etc. and then today treated like an unimportant speck.
this was a guy who would not let me be busy or not reply...
and now even he seems to not even care..if I reply or not as no voicemail is left. It is as if he has shifted and now treating me like he should have from the beginning...almost like normal sort of, but Im so used to the way it used to be.
it is tough to look this in the face and see he never cared. this just really sucks.. as the email just sits there.... and that will be it. it will sit in my box unopened and he will carry on being busy....
even though i have told him how hurt i have been (he doesnt care)
I thought long and hard tonite.... the reality is I cannot go on pretending this is all OK...and the project he was to do cant be done with me having these upset feelings...it just wont work.
so why is this so tough...to just walk away.
another thing is i cant believe i was narced again....
guess I had a lesson still left to learn. I need to get strong again, somehow.
i know what to do...it is just making it happen and looking out for me...and getting over all this hurt.
this just doesnt seem to be
Your situation sounds all too
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Journey
"I come first or dont come at all"
hey journey- your N sounds
Yes, destiny braveheart,
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thanks spinning... I sit here
Doing a business deal with
hahah, the circus... thanks
hahah, the circus... thanks
It is incredibly hard to
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Journey- I can so relate to
Destiny, I am so much better
Journey on...
Destiny, sweety, this pain
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thanks spinning im crying now
Classic narc moveto call and
Mine would not leave messages either
Never leaving messages
What a bitch... leaving you a
just got my proof
well i questioned why and
Ignored or adored, it's all
lol done sourcing- your post
Meow
done sourcing too funny
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thanks suzie so far tonite
Live or Die, it's up to you
very true hunter- live or
Desinty