I need to be done with him

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#1 Jul 26 - 8PM
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I need to be done with him

I thought I would start a new thread-

it is too difficult to stay...yet just as painful to cut him off....

but tonite i think was possibly the last straw...
a text to him like he wanted me to do about the business.

then nothing until an hour ago...him calling me....

no voicmail left...but instead he sent a text... he hasnt been leaving voicemails now for awhile... which i find very odd.

the text was all about him and how he got no answer when he called and he would be emailing me.

and there it is in my box from him... i sit here upset from all of this really...physically feel like i could throw up.

I just want to physically run and keep running to try an escape these feelings.

I am sure the email is talking about how busy he is and how he cant meet to discuss the project. and how he most likely is going to bed- which will leave me dangling by a string even more so....as I wait to find out the status of the project.

this would have been simple if I just had not picked up that phone to him the other nite.... I got sucked back in with him telling me how much he cared etc and nothing had changed he was just busy. I thought maybe it was all true and he would be back to being a friend and calling to see how my day was going etc. and then today treated like an unimportant speck.
this was a guy who would not let me be busy or not reply...
and now even he seems to not even care..if I reply or not as no voicemail is left. It is as if he has shifted and now treating me like he should have from the beginning...almost like normal sort of, but Im so used to the way it used to be.

it is tough to look this in the face and see he never cared. this just really sucks.. as the email just sits there.... and that will be it. it will sit in my box unopened and he will carry on being busy....

even though i have told him how hurt i have been (he doesnt care)

I thought long and hard tonite.... the reality is I cannot go on pretending this is all OK...and the project he was to do cant be done with me having these upset feelings...it just wont work.
so why is this so tough...to just walk away.

another thing is i cant believe i was narced again....
guess I had a lesson still left to learn. I need to get strong again, somehow.

i know what to do...it is just making it happen and looking out for me...and getting over all this hurt.

Jul 28 - 10PM
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this just doesnt seem to be

this just doesnt seem to be getting any better- maybe after some sleep it will. it is each time I talk to him...i think I either see more of what he is or more what he is NOT... or what no longer is with us. like how he could careless when we talk...or if we do... it just doesnt seem to even matter. I guess this is what happens when they really disgard you...it just sucks. I mean never would he have agreed to not talking for a week... just odd really , very odd. also each time I talk to him... it just brings back how he will go back to days where we dont talk....where he just doesnt even seem to care if I am in his life or not. tonite I am thinking of what he said to me "that we would never leave eachothers lives' i think this gives him some form of sick security he no longer needs to 'keep' me.... if that even makes sense. i went from being so sure I was OK last nite...to like this tonite...all because I talked to him...this is just insane... and it wasnt even what he said to me... it is what he didnt say.... and how he has just let me go. or so it seems. there was no checking in to see if I was OK email tnote (like in the past when he knew I wasnt feeling well he would do) I am either being punished or really have been left....just hurts tonite more than it even should... and I know everyone has given me the advice and support and everything.... i just need to do what I have to do I guess. somehow. I keep thinking but cant things go back...but they cant.... I dont know what to make of any of this though really as he has not acted like this before. just sucks - like right now if he wanted to talk to me he would be.... but there is no equality because if it was reveresed he is just MIA. and like when I cut the instant msg.... that was the one way we could talk.... just sux
Jul 28 - 3PM
Journey
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Your situation sounds all too

Your situation sounds all too familiar. HE sounds all too familiar. It is all about him and after reading through the comments in this thread I can see you are realizing that. His communication style sounds so much like my exN. We also have business ties. If I need clarification about something, he doesn't care if he makes we wait for a response because whatever he is 'too busy' doing is all that matters to him, yet if I don't reply right away to his emails or answer the phone, he will keep calling, or puts a 'read' notification response on his emails so he knows when I see them. Hey, depending on your business, maybe I could replace him and you could replace my exN's role in the business he and I started - lol! (seriously, PM me if your business can be done long distance - you never know - lol) Journey on...

Journey on...

Jul 28 - 4PM (Reply to #32)
Sparrow
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Journey

Mine would put me off, not answer my calls or emails & texted until he was good and ready..........he wouldn't even make an excuse..........he would flat out say, "I don't keep myself tethered to this things in hopes that you are trying to reach me"...............but boy oh boy, he was anxiously waiting for my return calls.......... NEVER AGAIN WILL I TOLERATE BEING A SECOND CLASS CITIZEN. I COME FIRST OR I DON'T COME AT ALL. Smiles
Jul 28 - 6PM (Reply to #33)
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"I come first or dont come at all"

good for you! Thats exactly how i feel...the longer i put up with being one of his last priorities,the more my self-asteem suffered.and the more bitter i got. Im so glad im not putting up with that bs anymore! He can go find someone else to roll his eyes at.lol
Jul 28 - 3PM (Reply to #21)
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hey journey- your N sounds

hey journey- your N sounds just like mine that is exactly how it goes...and today despite him knowing I would be at an appt he called me... and then said well I guess I will catch up to you tomorrow ( he left a vm this time) probably just to get that dig in that it didnt matter if we talked or not... so I called him back, canceling the meeting re the business s as i will not be able to make it... the conversation left me rather sad... and I couldnt place it really, but then I did... I now know what he is and each time I talk to him it just reinforces that feeling.... things have drastically changed with us... and although I have said I want them to go back...they just cant. He was getting a call coming in and just jumped off the phone , but the conversation ended way before that.... it is as if he no longer cares what I am saying (even though the words he uses say otherwise) so I feel like this but there is nothing HE can do .... because this is really what he is. Even if he magically went back to calling me twice a day again...i dont think that would make this better. Last nites conversation was OK... because I felt like i was in control...today not so much... Im looking for something that is no longer there from him and never was...and that is just sad. Plus someone he was going to have do the project is now not performing all that well.... so now I may just be left with no one. meanwhile he wants me to wait until Sept.... stringing me along. I need to be honest with myself and soon... what I am willing to put up with the hurt...just to not have to find his replacement. ugh. Journey you never know... I could possibly help with your business and im not an N so im sure it can run smoother. does anyone believe in signs...today I got to pretty significant ones.. leaning more towards a replacement for this N for the business part of this mess.
Jul 28 - 4PM (Reply to #22)
spinning
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Yes, destiny braveheart,

I believe in signs. I can also hear your gut nudging you in this post. Listen to it. It's hard, but if you don't that little voice will get smaller and smaller and pretty soon you'll be (forgive me) SPINNING from the whirlwind of what happened and how. You already know what you have to do. We'll help as much as possible. I can tell you want to spare yourself more pain. You're smart and strong. And if you are getting a sign that confirms whatever it is you are pondering, I think it's a good thing to pay attention to it. You're doing great, destiny. You'll get where you need to be, I just know it. Most sincerely, (not) spinning. IT'S NOT AN OPTION ANY MORE. I REJECT ALL CHAOS AND CONFUSION.

spinning

Jul 28 - 4PM (Reply to #23)
destiny (not verified)
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thanks spinning... I sit here

thanks spinning... I sit here just lost and teary eyed- reality just stings... after talking to him a few hours ago ...the truth just came out...he pretended that he cared but he doesnt. I went from being pretty high up in his life...to basically just some person he calls whenever.... I think I always was in control... not as available but now that he withdrew....it is much different... (going from talking twice a day to scraps now) and keeping me hanging on a string with this business....just sucks. pushing me off yet another month ans he lists all the fun things in his life he is doing...with the gf. there was once this inside joke we had...and today he mentioned it and I did not find it funny. he also said I need to find a rich guy (he never would have told me to go looking for someone before) so writing is on the wall... for me. the sign was the option besides him I am thinking about regarding the business aspect... i got two pretty vivid signs today... that tied into eachother that happened hours apart. It sucks when you know how you feel and there is no solution, but to walk away and for good. I dont think he would really care if I walked...probably would be relieved. oh and he found out his gf has some medical issue..and HE says...there must be something wrong with me that I ruin healthy women like this..my xwife had a similar health issue. I thought how is this about YOU...omg!! but it also shows his low self worth...which he expresses..a lot. it is like everytime i talk to him I am reminded of this ending..over and over again. i thought i was strong thought I could just deal with the business but I just cant... i tried.
Jul 28 - 11PM (Reply to #29)
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Doing a business deal with

Doing a business deal with these x's is like trying to be friends with them. They know no boundaries. They will always twist and bring in personal stuff in their unique fucked up way. He will use the business conversations as an opening for the same old garbage. It will be about him again, as usual. When we talk to them we get sucked right back into the drama. Advising you as to who you should date??? Assclown, send him back to the circus! ds
Jul 28 - 11PM (Reply to #31)
destiny (not verified)
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hahah, the circus... thanks

hahah, the circus... thanks for the laugh I so need one right about now- yea he made a reference of who I should date... which never would have happened in the past. I guess my heart is having a difficult time catching up to what my mind already knows. it is odd because.... when i am ignoring him or more busy.... I dont feel like this....it is only when he acts like the assclown... and acts much different now than he has in the past... he would never before go a day without 'checking' in with me.... just hurtful as I thought things were and could go back to atleast something like they were in the past. perhaps his stupid ego couldnt deal with me canceling and then saying we would talk next week ( i ddi that I guess to test him a bit and see if he would care) he didnt appear to care. I used to always tell him he should go looking for someonelse and now it is he that is saying that to me. games? who knows.... something seems amiss in his life he cant even pay his utility bills. just odd he is OK with all of this. Like I said easier when I can ignore when he is calling me.... and yes I will admit I was officially sucked in... sucked into believing things were going into a direction where we could atelast get the business done... but then he dropped that the person to do the job isnt up to standards... sucks. I feel like for my own sake though... I need to meet get this over with and just get my own closure...stop haging by some thread. all of it sucks beyond any words there are.... to be OK one day then crying tonite... and who knows how i will feel tomorrow. as im sure he will go along for a week like I said... jerks! like i have posted he never would have allowed me to do this... ever.
Jul 28 - 11PM (Reply to #30)
destiny (not verified)
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hahah, the circus... thanks

hahah, the circus... thanks for the laugh I so need one right about now- yea he made a reference of who I should date... which never would have happened in the past. I guess my heart is having a difficult time catching up to what my mind already knows. it is odd because.... when i am ignoring him or more busy.... I dont feel like this....it is only when he acts like the assclown... and acts much different now than he has in the past... he would never before go a day without 'checking' in with me.... just hurtful as I thought things were and could go back to atleast something like they were in the past. perhaps his stupid ego couldnt deal with me canceling and then saying we would talk next week ( i ddi that I guess to test him a bit and see if he would care) he didnt appear to care. I used to always tell him he should go looking for someonelse and now it is he that is saying that to me. games? who knows.... something seems amiss in his life he cant even pay his utility bills. just odd he is OK with all of this. Like I said easier when I can ignore when he is calling me.... and yes I will admit I was officially sucked in... sucked into believing things were going into a direction where we could atelast get the business done... but then he dropped that the person to do the job isnt up to standards... sucks. I feel like for my own sake though... I need to meet get this over with and just get my own closure...stop haging by some thread. all of it sucks beyond any words there are.... to be OK one day then crying tonite... and who knows how i will feel tomorrow. as im sure he will go along for a week like I said... jerks! like i have posted he never would have allowed me to do this... ever.
Jul 28 - 5PM (Reply to #26)
Journey
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It is incredibly hard to

It is incredibly hard to continue in business with them. I felt like you for a long time when I still couldn't separate the bus aspect from the personal loss i was feeling. I have gotten over that now for the most part (it's been 2 years), but it wasn't easy and it prolonged my healing because i couldn't just go no contact and be done with him. Once I began to realize it was really over between us and there was little to salvage anymore about our personal relationship (before I discovered he was a narc), I made the decision to communicate with him only when I had to, to not talk about personal things at all unless it couldn't be avoided. I stopped expecting ANYTHING from him in the way of caring about me and only after that really sunk in and I could let go of the pain from it, has it become easier still having some communication. As a matter of fact, I just got off the phone with him about a project I am currently working on (for him) and I was delighted that I really felt nothing other than slight amusement. Hearing his voice and what he has to say now is almost laughable because it is so 'all about him'. Explaining things to him which to me seems so obvious (about the project), makes me realize just how little he bothers to know about what he thinks someone else should take care of for him (regardless of how it might be something logically he should do himself). I can't think for him or make his decisions, yet that seems to be something he expects me to know - what he wants and how he wants to do it - without being told what that is. THAT is not in my job description - lol!

Journey on...

Jul 28 - 5PM (Reply to #27)
destiny (not verified)
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Journey- I can so relate to

Journey- I can so relate to what you said regarding the bus aspect. He often would need my approval for things,...things he should have been able to do on his own. nothing was needed from me at all. then it turned into I was getting too involved and trying to do his work...he just wanted to have this be stress free and just another project. that is another reason I canceled the meeting it would just be more of the same..as twice we have discussed business stuff and I havent appreciated his lack of care about it (we will figure it out type of thing) I am really at a loss with this... part of me feels like just ignoring, but ignoring what...calls that will never come anyway... being strung along regarding the project. I feel like I just need to tell him this is it...and we are just done. I no longer feel good about our communication...I tried and it just is not working. because right now I am at his mercy to complete this for me... and he is already telling me there are issues with the person he was to get to perform the actual project... ugh. and I was told dont worry we will figure it out together. too frustrating for me...I need a start date and soon for this. all I do know is in the past he would run to my aide... now he just remains distant. you give me hope though, you seem much better now about your x narc-
Jul 28 - 6PM (Reply to #28)
Journey
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Destiny, I am so much better

Destiny, I am so much better now and really it is a fairly new condition (which I have to monitor a lot still - not to slip back into missing him mode). The guy I miss was never really here for me anyway, it was always about having his needs met. I've seen that for awhile now, but it took a long time to understand it fully and accept it. I am only still doing bus with him because of my circumstances. I don't know if I would have ever attempted to try to otherwise and I don't recommend it. Being on the other side of my healing now, it isn't as bad at all as it used to be and this project I'm currently doing could be the last one - probably should be the last one. I just have to get my financial life back on track and find other work before I'm willing to severe our bus ties completely. He has no idea I feel this way... he has no idea how hard it really was for me these past two years. He has happily moved on and just figures whatever he does about me. For a long time now, I've offered him very little info in regards to me anymore - or how I feel - especially about him. I just do my part of the work and get paid. I don't (usually) need to see him at all and if I did have to, I don't think I could have continued doing it all this time.

Journey on...

Jul 28 - 4PM (Reply to #24)
spinning
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Destiny, sweety, this pain

sucks. I know all about it. Letting go of an ideal is so hard. I know how heartbreaking it is to wake up slowly to the fact that a person who you thought cared about you a lot and that you were important and a priority to simply cares about THEMSELVES only...it is mindboggling because we don't work that way. Here's the good news, destiny. This pain will not last forever. Let the tears out, let it out! It's okay to feel bad about being treated poorly. IT SUCKS AND IT'S NOT RIGHT. Every time you let more out you are dealing with it and believe it or not moving toward healing. And don't put yourself down...please. He will care if you walked, just not in the way we show it. YOU HAVE A LOT TO OFFER AND HE KNOWS IT. WHY DO YOU THINK HE KEEPS STRINGING YOU ALONG! He will feel your loss (not that it matters what he's feeling because this is about YOU!). Realize this and OWN the fact that you are special, a great friend, a good person, and all the things that are uniquely YOU that he will not be priviledged to any more because of his POOR Behavior and HIS CHOICES. He will always, always, always be like this. You, on the other hand will be embracing a new future free of this confusion and these bad feelings. This is the TRUTH! I know this because I've worked the steps and am almost 9 months out. Destiny, I hope this has helped some. I know you will be fine, I can tell from your other posts. I can also tell when you have contact with him you end up feeling sad. When you don't (like when you were eating and you ignored his calls) you feel better. For me, contact always meant pain. Maybe this is true for you, too. Only you will be able to tell that. I send you a big hug and say chin up, girlfriend! You will be fine, I just know it. Most sincerely, (not) spinning. I REFUSE TO EVER AGAIN.

spinning

Jul 28 - 4PM (Reply to #25)
destiny (not verified)
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thanks spinning im crying now

thanks spinning im crying now but gosh I dont want to cry over this moron! thank you spining you have helped me a lot... seems like you know just what I am going thru... and I have been narced before..but this was more of a friendship.... I cant quite explain this...my past Narc I knew something was very wrong with him...with this one I did not... he was always so caring and helpful. ya know what he said to me...most guys like women with big breasts (and I cut him off and didnt let him finish) he was implying that it would be difficult for me to find someone...and I said oh, I dont think i would have a problem I have had no problems in the past finding anyone. so that shut him down.... more of him trying to imply he is different than most guys... he tried earlier in the conversation to say something else...that in the past has gotten to me and he remarked..wow in the past you would have hung up.. what gets me is I keep thinking talking to him is going to help and it does the exact opposite. I even canceled that meeting (something i would never had done) but I had a gut feeling he would have canceled anyway... he seemed sort of down...but ah well. he isnt as open about any of his feelings anymore (not that he had them) maybe he knows I know who he is.... or maybe he just hates me that much. I think he has found someone new anyway...or acting as if he has .... he is a lot more distant...I do know his business is stressing him lately.... I need to just walk...i know that, but yet it is just so hard to do. but he has made no effort and wont to get things back on solid ground.... You are right though I do have a lot to offer...and he will never see that....and that is a sad thing. when I told him i guess I would talk to him next week...he was absolutely fine with that........how can that be.
Jul 26 - 10PM
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Classic narc moveto call and

Classic narc moveto call and not leave a voicemail. I have probably 15 -20 people who call me and only one doesn't leave messages, the exwn. Must be a Narcness Monster thing. ds
Jul 28 - 5PM (Reply to #19)
Caligirl
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Mine would not leave messages either

The first time he did this early on in the r/s, I asked him why didn't he leave a message. No answer. His family did the same. In my family we ALWAYS leave messages. When he did it, it really bugged me. I find it rude. It shouldn't matter that technology records the missed call these days, a message is polite. :)
Jul 27 - 6AM (Reply to #18)
Susan32
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Never leaving messages

The ex-Psych prof did the SAME thing to me! He'd call, but he NEVER left messages, and it was mainly crank calls. Like he'd call&hang up. And he was my TEACHER, not an ex-spouse or ex-boyfriend. He'd NEVER call me back on anything... even when I was enrolled in his class.
Jul 27 - 6AM (Reply to #17)
Reddley
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What a bitch... leaving you a

What a bitch... leaving you a constant reminder that she's still lurking and waiting to screw with your head. I hope there's a special place in hell for these people, I really do. Reading this post... I am glad my ex N has a phone phobia. He's cut off of facebook and blocked on emails so he can only talk to me on neutral territory(work). Let him act like an asshole there and he'll get fired. He's worn out his welcome there... one more warning and it's the boot.
Jul 26 - 9PM
destiny (not verified)
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just got my proof

as I was eating a very late dinner... my phone rings...it is him...then my cell rings.... and just now as predictable as ever i have a text sent from his email... asking if I was ok. aka..why arent i answering to him.... and he is going to bed shortly. so basically he can be busy and I cant... Like I said in an earlier post... he wouldnt have let me say i was busy today if things were reversed when I texted like he wanted me to.(and he replied he was busy and then didnt get to calling me until very late) i replied i was eating so he would just leave me be... but I am starting to see no how it probably never was concern for me... was just that he couldnt let me just be busy.. or not answer the phone to him when he called... im sure my text back to him will be ignored... I dont care. I cried a bit before eating... im just so worn from it all. It should be simple. not like this. the only reason I may have to stay in contact with him is if I cant find a replacement for him to do the work he was supposed to do...which sucks. i just need to pray i can find someone ....
Jul 26 - 10PM (Reply to #11)
destiny (not verified)
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well i questioned why and

well i questioned why and what he wanted to talk about and he said forget it and went to bed. typical! so i guess it will be another day of being ignored.
Jul 26 - 11PM (Reply to #12)
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Ignored or adored, it's all

Ignored or adored, it's all an act. They are the same, narc behavior is disordered, and will always hurt and abuse. Your narc will be well rested to bite suspecting and unsuspecting people alike upon arising. What is hiding beneath the mask is abuse. ds
Jul 27 - 12AM (Reply to #13)
destiny (not verified)
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lol done sourcing- your post

lol done sourcing- your post made me laugh...because he will be well rested ready to bite again. if he even went to bed...he is known to be up late drinking alone. actually I suspect since I am not in his life anymore to the extent that I was...that he has to take it out on someonelse now. Even though he never really was so nasty to me until a few months ago...so drastic of a change. part of me wonders if that is why I am being ignored... because I make him feel bad about himself...because I am a constant reminder of how pitiful his life is really. (hard to explain without going into details)but he failed so many times. I thought about somethings tonite...he really sucked me in big time... I mean he has nothing going for him ..he isnt successful at all... in the present he really is not all that attractive to me....it is the past I am stuck on how he treated me...and how kind he was etc... he wouldnt go a day without checking in on me. all lies now, obviously. he thinks we are still so close.... Im closer to my cat's vet that I see twice a year at this point. he is out living his life today and chose to ignore me and put me on the back burner until he felt like it. that is so far from how things used to be... not acceptable. he wants to talk business...and i really have to think..because he will pick up on my distance and get suspicious for sure... a friend of mine who has listened to me tonite..said to just get the business done and then be done with him for good. completely done. the odd thing is I dont feel that he can suck me in again...not after our last phone conversation did to me... i see after tonite...how he did not allow me to be busy...or ignore him. he expected me to pick up that phone like I always do. these people are so evil.... evil to the core. and how on earth does that gf stay....and why. I need a distraction and I wont even remember who he is...
Jul 27 - 5PM (Reply to #14)
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Meow

Maybe if you had not been so obsessed with the cats Vet you would have been able to focus all of your attention and adoration on the Narc, then none of this would have happened. Yep. That's it. You slept with the Vet and project that guilt onto that poor poor misunderstood pillar of all that is good and wonderful Narc. Taking the cat to the Vet twice a year, excessive and costly. Time and money better spent on a Narc. meow meow ds-lol
Jul 27 - 8PM (Reply to #15)
destiny (not verified)
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done sourcing too funny

you have it all figured out....how dare my cat need to see the vet!! lol tonite I went out- not anything big...just shopping for food... but while there I always bump into people I know.including.friendly people that work there... after awhile you see the same people week after week (small store) it was very refreshing- and somehow gave me a new perspective. and then i got into my car and had a text from him... but about the business he is supposed to finish up... it was no big deal... I didnt reply and carried on with my life. I do have to eventually deal with that loose end... but I will on my time. and detached. I think I am back in a better place... I just hope it can last. until going out there tonite to the store I forgot all about normal people... someone even suggested a recipe I could try. thanks everyone for making me laugh...and for the support... im not thru the fog yet... but I am hopeful. I think the key is to keep busy,very busy.
Jul 26 - 8PM
SusieSwizzle
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Your N - My N

Potato / Po-TAH-TOE I know its hard either way...but I have started to realize this (and maybe you should, too)...Id rather be alone and content one day rather than lonely and miserable every day. You dont have to initiate NC immediately if you dont feel comfortable..But maybe you could take baby steps if it helps, simply by trying to ignore a text...or ignore a call...eventually, you will want to ignore him completely, the way he chooses to ignore you. I dont want that to sound too rough, but these Ns are the most selfish and nasty breed out here. They are all about them. Noone else. So hard to believe people like this exist, but they do. My thoughts are with you..try to be strong..You will be happy in the long run :) I PROMISE XOXOX
Jul 26 - 9PM (Reply to #9)
destiny (not verified)
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thanks suzie so far tonite

thanks suzie so far tonite three calls , a text an email ignored... i replied to one text- i like the baby step idea.... that just might work in this instance since he is ignoring me mostly now. correction i got another email that is now in my box- that was sent to me via text and email... this just sucks
Jul 26 - 8PM
Hunter
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Live or Die, it's up to you

Live or Die, it's up to you to make your own DESTINY! You can do it. NCNCNC Hunter
Jul 26 - 8PM (Reply to #2)
destiny (not verified)
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very true hunter- live or

very true hunter- live or die... this is just so difficult I dont know why reality is he is not even in my life - not like he used to be... and he thinks all of this is OK. he wont even care if i ignore that email either. when i dont talk to him for a few days I feel better.... I was doing better until i picked up that damn phone... i picked it up because I thought things would go back to the way that they were. then he tries to be normal saying he is just busy. I dont believe that at all. I could just scream right now... I am that angry. Im without someone to take on his role in the project...I lost someone i thought was a friend...ugh. maybe i need to just cry and get it all out.
Jul 26 - 8PM (Reply to #3)
Hunter
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Desinty

Nope it's not easy! Sucks, really. When I say " Scrambled Eggs" it's not a joke! Be Strong, if I can do it, you can too. Hunter