A Cure from Obsessive Thoughts!

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#1 Jun 30 - 4PM
JRB123
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A Cure from Obsessive Thoughts!

Hi there, I went NC last Autumn but have had to see the N regularly on a very casual basis. I was having trouble getting over him and having obsessive thoughts. It was really hard. Well it's now been about 8 months and I can truly say I am nearly over it. One of the best ' cures' has happened to me over the last week!
One of the reasons I was attracted to the N was that he appeared to lead quite an exciting life. This made me re-evaluate my own life to spice it up abit with healthy activities so I would not look elsewhere for excitement.
One of the things I signed up for was to work with a major charity (Oxfam) at their festival shop. I have just spent a week at Glastonbury with them. This is one of the worlds biggest festivals. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done as the conditions were terrible in thick thick mud and lots of rain. We also worked really hard, about 60-70 hours and had to stomp through mud for an hour to get to the shop. I slept in a tent which gradually got muddier and muddier. I met some lovely people and on the little time off we got I saw some great bands. Well it was so full on I actually found myself half way through the week thinking ' Blimey I haven't thought about the N!' and I truly didn't. I was so occupied with surviving the mud bath, working hard, meeting people and had complete sensory overload with all the acts going on that my brain was too tired to think of him. I averaged about 3 hours sleep a night too! It was a little bit like being at boot camp! However I am really glad I did it and I think the 3 Oxfam shops may have raised about £60,000 for charity! I have come home and I feel like I'm back to myself more! hooray! I also feel quite tough that I have survived a N experience (for the 2nd time) as well as Glastonbury in the mud. I haven't seen him yet but I think I am feeling indifferent. I came back on Sunday and this is the first time I have been on this site compared to daily before!
So my advice to everyone is to push yourself out of the comfort zone, get out there, do things - anything to distract yourself from the N, live your life, have adventures of the healthy kind and keep NC. I think Ns can make us feel like our lives have got stuck but truly life does go on. Get out there and make the most of it, don't let the N hold you back.Things will get better for you all. Keep those toxic people out of your lives!

Jun 30 - 7PM
michele115 (not verified)
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Excellent Excellent Advice!

Thank you so much for sharing. For the newbies it might take a little time to get out of the "immediate" rut, we've all had to put the blankets over our heads and lick our wounds a bit...but I can testify, you speak the truth and I am so happy you had such an invogorating experience. I can't brag about as much of a challenge but I have found really diving into this awareness thing and setting goals and conversing with victims but now from a perspective of feeling like I've pretty much survived...even though I still say "I am in recovery *I haven't done the 18 months* I feel like I have a new passion and lease on life. I am seeing with this so many other experiences coming together and how other skills and things were not in vain because with what I want to do, I have pretty much what I need to accomplish my goals for raising awareness and it is such a challenge every day to come across new information, technology etc... Yes, dive in! Thanks so much for sharing this... Hugs!
Jun 30 - 6PM
SoaperGirl
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Good advice - I notice the busier I am, the less time for him

Mercifully, lately and maybe I am becoming indifferent I hope, my mind is obsessing less and less on the narc. Sometimes, I feel my mind start in obsessing over him, I'll go "Aw, c'mon, he's boring. What a waste of time and energy focusing on that fool!" It's just getting so boring thinking about him. He's just too much trouble. I have no idea if he thinks of me at all, and I don't care. I just want to get on with my life. I want a new life - to get involved in new activities - of course, summer weather as set in - hot and hummid, it's miserable..my body, especially my legs have been aching the last couple of days and I've been resting and drinking water more. Staying near the AC. Whatever he's doing, and I'm feeling these days, I just want to forget he even exists. Hoping soon, I won't even remember him. I hope once I adjust to the heat and humidity, I'll be once again busy - I'm still out and out doing things, and it helps!