How to STOP BEATING myself up?!?!?!
How to STOP BEATING myself up?!?!?!
Hi All!
So this morning I was driving into work and I realize that my self confidence has been broken down to a level I never thought it would be. I went through a major breakup over 2 years ago and I never felt the way I’m feeling with just being with someone for 4 flipping months!!! Is something wrong with me??? I haven’t been in contact with him and don’t care to be, I wanted him to come after me so I can ignore him- but right now I don’t care about wasting another second on him- yet still I’m FIGHTING myself in my head right now and typing about him this very second!!!
I’ve always been pretty good about associating myself with the “right” people, until the Narc. He was the farthest thing from the kind of guy I’d date (legal trouble, drug troubles, in a nutshell a complete loser) but he got exactly what he needed out of me, besides 100% of my attention… I feel like an idiot… early on I saw SIGNS but I kept with it… WHY!?!?!? Most days about 85% of my days I’m pretty positive… other days I BEAT MYSELF UP… today is one of those days!
I don’t understand how I can know exactly what I want, Know exactly what I need to do and want to do and yet still I found myself in this mess… How the hell did I fall for the guy who was SO FAKE?!?!? I have a few but amazing female friends because I can’t stand FAKENESS, yet still, I found myself what could have been seriously involved with the FAKEST person I’ve ever met in my life… Because of this jackass I feel like I question every guy (is he a narcissist?) that tries to talk to me or even looks at me!!!
There’s got to be some of you who were in this very position… How did you move past it? I spend nights trying to figure out WHAT WENT WRONG in my head because CLEARLY something did… I mean was it the Psychology part of me that felt I could be the one that could save him? UGH!!! FFFFFFK!
I think what worked for me
Prettypeeved
Heh, that's Dimo from my fave
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See my other thread! I got
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Thanks gals!
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Pinkyrose, I definitely had a
I refuse to internalize the N....
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Think Strategy!
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It's so hard being away from
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Hi Kiwi keep strong i have
STAY STRONG!! XX
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Wow, I coulda written your post! :)
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