Friggin broke NC again....
Friggin broke NC again....
Ok, so I broke NC again, on Tuesday night. I was watching ice hockey and I texted him commenting on the game. He texted back right away with "Hey babe!!...", commented on the game and asked how I was. My next text was telling him "I'm so sorry for bothering you. I'm doing ok, I just miss you soooo much!" His response "Oh now, no worries. I miss you too. Where r u?" There was some back and forth of texting, just catching up, but of course this then led into him asking me if I was frisky, telling me I'm very sexy and that I make him hard. He then asked for a picture. I played the sexting game for a while but didn't send any pictures. It ended with us both saying we were going to bed thinking of each other. Why, oh WHY does this belittling behavior make me so friggin HIGH???? I know it's beneath me. I know I deserve more, but I'm starting to feel that the jolt I get from the crumbs he gives me feels SO MUCH better than the pain of NC!!! Oh God. And I thought I was doing so well. Ugh.
But see?? This is PROOF POSITIVE about them and their OW....HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND and is sexting with ME!!! They just LOVE the extracurricular activity that gets them the ego strokes and NS.
The really sad thing is that I should be disgusted with myself, but I'm not. The texting ended Tuesday night and then resumed Weds morning and again Weds night. I think I'm still basking in the afterglow of those interactions, but I'm sure I'm headed for a nasty withdrawal after I come down from this high. He truly is a narc-otic for me.
Thanks for listening you guys.
xoxo ~Veronrose
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