Do any of you experience
Do any of you experience
A feeling of tremendous abandonment? As if you were just raped and left to die on the street somewhere? Its such conflicting things to battle, not only did I think he loved me I truly believed I was very special to him that we had something he has never had with anybody else, with our history of playing together as children, etc I thought maybe at least I was a SPECIAL victim to him.
I feel at times SO LOST without him, I know that is crazy but I miss the control he had over me, I could always turn to him. Now when I look back, where was he when I needed him, the nights I cried myself to sleep, sobbing and aching for him as he was curled up with his live in GF in their beautiful new home. Sometimes I wonder what have I done SO WRONG in my life that I had to experience something so painful as this? Did I deserve this? I have done all the steps and have stayed strong with NC, maybe I could at least get a plaque or something saying, NEVERLOOKBACK WENT NOT CONTACT and a date on it. But I get NOTHING for the hard work and steps I have taken to make my life better. Why isnt my life getting better? I feel so ALONE now, he is gone forever and he was the most exciting person I have ever been with, AND the most disturbed person I have ever been with.
I miss my illusion and it hurts every damn day
Oh God I could've written
NLB
Yes, I sometimes do.I think
NC
bittersweet
NLB
Bitter-sweet, what a beautiful
spinning
I'm glad if this has
YEs
momoya
abandoned
Creators vs. Victims
Yes. You will be fine
You are doing great! Look at
Yep. For me its all about the
i have cried reading this
Candy
NLB
There is no plaque or trophy
Fear for my Sanity
The sick inner gratification
This made me cry. I feel the
THey dont ever win
Abandonment