I don't know if I can do this :(

The dreams are normal. It's part of the process! Be strong, you don't think it now but in a month or two you will feel better! This is a toxic person, Her behavior has given you no options! NC is the way to heal from this cancer! Fight, you can do it! Idealk

This past week I finally started to feel normal, but for a month I was horrible because the person whom I trusted and thought was a friend, I told a lot of personal information to, and come to find out he was an ex-con, a liar, and an alcoholic, so not only was I hurt and felt emotionally raped, but I was afraid because I didn't know if this person has/had a violent background and considering his sudden personality change on me, its very possible. But talking on here, going to my therapist and rationalizing everything has made me feel much better. I too was waking up in the morning feeling like a weight was on my chest. Its like in sleep I had peace and rest from my thoughts but the next morning it would hit me like a tone of bricks. You may still go through self doubts and still hurt, but like my therapist said, that's normal because thats part of the grieving process, and I'm still grieving my father, so to have this happen, on top of an illness just made it very painful Hang in there.

...and you'll be glad you did. It's so difficult in the early days of NC but this is when it's important to remember what the person you think you miss REALLY IS and REALLY DID TO YOUR LIFE. Write a list of the good and bad. You will see it in black and white. This helped me A LOT in the beginning. You are working hard to get to this point and take it minute by minute if you have to...don't turn back. It will cost you a lot. I'm sending you the good vibes for strength and peace of mind. sincerely (determined to stop) spinning

It is painful but going back for more pain is not the answer. This is not real love, and it is one sided. You know you deserve better. I know it is a hard day for you, but stay NC, and get through this day. hugs

Good morning! I know the dream shook you, I remember having very vivid very real dreams early on. It's the withdrawl/detoxing of all of it, and since it was in your subconscious, you woke up with this very powerful veil. But, you know in reality, this relationship was not healthy...look at how it's left you feeling. I've yet to encounter a breakup that leaves anyone "feeling good" but the pain involved with these kinds of breakups are...traumatic, gut wrenching and mind "screwin" to say the least. It is very hard right now, and it is very early, but if you open up that pandoras box...I think you'd be in for much greater damage. This is something you know is not meant to be "for life" and you have other things to consider...and they're not worth losing. I am sending you postive vibes for peace and strength today. It was a dream...do your best to stay focused on the "reality" of all of this. Hugs!

If you don't, you're going to have to go through the past 8 days all over again. And it doesn't get any better the next time. My thought is that the dreams are part of working the N out of your system, things you can't really express or digest in real life. I've been NC for over a year and have had many dreams. I had one Sunday night. I think there are still residual pieces that just need to work their way out and sometimes it's too hard to do it consciously. Do not let this sway you from NC. It will get better. And if you break NC now, you're going to have to relive this at some point. Read the posts from those who have broken NC. It's regretted every time.

Yes you can!!! You can stay no contact KG!!! Sometimes, when I'm feeling really down...I try to mentally send peace, healing and comfort his way. Not for him, but for me. This way I can send him the love and caring that I still feel for him, while continuing to protect myself. I have read your story, and I feel your pain. Think about this KG... What would you say to her? What would she say? Would you feel the way you want to feel after you talked? Is talking to her protecting YOU? Write your list of all of the crappy things she has done to hurt you. Read it over and over. Look at your patients today at work and give them an extra smile, warm care and compassion. Do you think one of the women you care for today at work has been with a Narc? It's very possible. Remember how it feels...