The GF sent me an email Part 2
The GF sent me an email Part 2
My God what a day it has been. First of all thank you all so very much for your support. I got messages through out the day and it kept me from completely breaking down and losing it. Thank you so much! I can't even describe the place I'm in now. It's a very dark and depressed state of mind on top of rage like I've never felt in my life. Scary rage. Falling to pieces is putting it lightly. I answered her but I didn't answer her questions. I told her that I wanted no part of what was going on but she needed to follow her gut! (thanks idealk I couldn't come up with a thing!) She emailed me back in fantasy land like I had told her that he was faithful and the most amazing man she would ever meet! And I thought I was delusional! She gave me details about how wonderful their life is and how they are planning on getting married. Detail after detail of their happy lives. I broke NC (and I was doing SO GOOD) and sent him a text message and told him to get his GF off my ass! He called and told me to ignore her and that he doesn't want me to have to deal with any of this because he knows the stress is not good for my Crohn's!!! He said that is why I haven't heard from him in 11 days because he's looking out for MY WELL BEING! BULLSHIT!!!!!!! He is scrambling and lying to keep me from talking to her. He's using my disease to make himself look like the good guy! It's just sickening.
I'm sure everybody knows where my head is now. Maybe he really is happy with her. She babysits his kids all the time and she's available at his every beck and call and I never could be. Maybe he is going to try to be decent to her? Maybe he really does love her but still wants the excitement of sex with me? It's been ELEVEN days since he told me he loved me and ELEVEN days since he asked me for sex! It's been 3 freaking weeks since he asked me to go look at engagement rings! He was doing the same thing with her. She showed me today how big of a liar he actually is. Everything he told me about her and their relationship was a lie! DUH! It's not even that I really believed it when he said it BUT why would somebody do that??? WHY!!!!!!!! Cause he's sick and he's a Narc and blah blah blah!
Now I'm physically sick from the drama of the day and they are at his house celebrating his daughters birthday as a FAMILY. I was there last year celebrating and he made me leave because his ex-wife pitched a fit because I was there. How in the world did I get here???
I think maybe I shouldn't have answered her but the clarity she gave me about him was something I needed. It's too painful to deal with though. I'll be sick for days from this. He's setting up house and celebrating with his new family and I'm at home sick. It always seems like they come out on top. Always.
Thank you again for all of the support today. I don't know what I would do without all of you. It's gonna take me forever to dig myself back out of this. I was doing so good and now I'm in a very deep depression.
HE MAKES HER HAPPY?
"I'm sure everybody knows
beamoflight
It's so painful - I want to email him
Do Not any contact with him
SOI
Why do you still talk to him...here's the answer
And less damaged. They only
Sickofit...
The Karma is...
Michele
Well, I'll give you a little fodder...
Michele
The significance of the twenty year story
you may feel mentally
staying strong
You won't "block" him from
She has NOTHING. she has
staying strong
lol My ex had straight
Cross-eyed beaver!
lol!
He suffers everyday. How
SOI
I think they know they dont
Sara
idealk
SARA!
Michele
Sara,