What would you do?

This is my first post. I haven't told my story. I'll make it short and sweet, this sick sociopath has destroyed everything I ever believed in, and told his daughter that he was going to do everything he could to break me, and he nearly has...the only thing that saved my life is the court therapist who stepped in and recommended supervised visitation which was getting counseling in her office with his daughter...we have not heard a word since until last month she turned 18 (but still has 5 months of school left)before graduating. So the day of her 18th birthday he called her and said he loves and misses her and would like to see her, for me this has started the PTSD symptoms all over, Im past being sick of the evil pervert who even stole his child's dog which is living with him and his new wife, and considering the amount of guilt I feel that this is what I chose to be the father to my only child, I can't help and wonder if it would have been easier on her if he had killed me and then killed himself. I fear if my daughter refuses him he will harm her and dump more rage, I feel so responsible for not seeing this sooner, and will worry for her and what he may try and do in court even more, I live in fear and the feeling of hopelessness and impending doom, and I WANT OUR DOG BACK FROM THIS SICK CREATURE, we cant heal b/c every step we take he has done something else. HE HAS BROKE ALL COURT ORDERS AND NOONE HELPED US BUT THE THERAPIST, I HOPE THE JUDGE GOES TO HELL ALONG WITH THE ALL THE POLICE OFFICERS WHO CAME TO OUR HOME ONLY TO TELL MY CHILD AND ME WE WOULD HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT IN COURT. WHAT A JOKE....HOW DO I IMMUNE MYSELF AND EVEN BEGIN TO HEAL, IM PARALIZED WITH FEAR AND RAGE. HE HAS BROKEN OR DISTROYED EVERYTHING, I FEAR INCLUDING ME.